BITS AND PIECES

last night, i attended the birthday celebration of ana, the executive producer of asenso pinoy (the program in where I do segment writing with) which also happened to be the christmas party of the group.

I have been with them for a month now, writing their segments and once in a while doing the editing too. This raket is a big help for me, actually, especially when the editing jobs was given to me also. Having a more spare time here at PDI helped a lot... I just don't know next year...

hmm...

Anyway.. i really felt welcomed last night... since it was the first time that I met all the staffs of the show (coz I only get to talk with mabel, mikoy, ana, and abet most of the time)... and they are all so nice!

Videoke conquered the night... bida ang magic sing! But no!!! I never sang.. I still have a bit of shyness last night... hehehe!

Anyway, there is a raffle too... It was not as big time as it is .. but its not the worth of the prizes that matters anyway.. it was the fun actually..

well i get these...

and edmark microwavable bowl sets.. oh! the mug is the show's christmas giveaway...

What can I say...

I was just glad I have them... another family to treasure...

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it was a great day to smile..

after all, i knew i have the reason to do so...

i was hoping i could come to work earlier than usual, when a Serena, our agent from Globelines arrives to accomplish some stuffs for my broadband application.. yep! im going to have my broadband soon!! excited!!! yipee!!!!

she stayed at the house for like an hour, i guess.. coz she has to do some business phonecalls and stuffs while attending to me.. duh! like I almost wanted to tell her "can you do that phonecalls later coz I still have to go to work and seems like were almost done anyway?".. nah! but I know that would be very mean... I don't want to be rude.. considering she's quite nice to us anyway...

so there she was... after all that phonecalls to other clients.. now, its my turn.. and believe me.. it just took us 10 minutes to accomplish everything... and our line application will be in this coming Sunday...

oh well.. the moment she left iur house, I immediately ran and took a bath.. getting ready for work...

this is the best part of everything...

i forgot to unplug my electric cooker and i just remembered it while shampooing.. Hahaha!! so i immediately "towelled" (is there such a word?) myself and ran to the kitchen, unplug the cooker... then Serena send a message... our gate is locked so I have to run down (with my hair wet with conditioner) to open it... hah! Hello!!! im in the middle of my shower!!!!!!

Oh well.. then i headed to the bathroom again to continue my thing when suddenly I received another message... I thought, it was, again, from Serena (coz she's some kinda makulit sometimes) but when I saw my inbox with the name of the sender on it... I stood still.. surprised... smiled.. it was from the only person on my phonebook whom I placed a smiley icon with... my whole world stopped.. at that moment...

I opened the mesage... its a simple "hi"... like after 3 weeks and 2 days, he finally says "hi" again.. this time through text. It was unusual for him to send text messages coz he always calls...

yeah.. somehow it made me smile... i felt relieved that after all this time I was afraid he's not going to keep in touch again... and after our last talk.. i thought it caused some mishaps... well.. now.. i know were still fine...

I wanted to reply.. so much that I excitedly typed my message (let me keep my message to myself *wink*) but when i was sending it... my network failed... so.. my message didn't get to him. Sad....

I know and I'm waiting for his call... hopefully soon...

I also know he has lot of things to tell...

So, if ever you read this... im just here...

Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas...

is how my dear Van called our date last night...

Vanny is one of my dearest best friend way back college... Like Nik, she's one of the first i knew on the first day of our freshmen year.. (well... she's actually the first one I talked to... we were the only people then on that classroom... the "early birds" hehehe!)



We've been best friends since then... but separated ways on our junior year when we take our own majors... but still, we're hanging out more often.. shared everything... chismis, problems, life... just like what friends should be...

So last night, we met up.. to update each other and to bond... for a while I haven't seen her.. she's been very busy lately that she failed to come in every gimiks me and monique had...

We had our dinner at wendy's. She wanted it there so we could talk daw. Van, I thank you for understanding the situation. It was a wonderful talk, really. Please do what I asked, ok? It would mean a lot...




anyway.. she handed me this belated happy birthday gift... a burned disc compilation of songs from "the art of letting go" album. well.. she really kew me, i guess that I really loved the cd... in time for what am i feeling right now...

and an advance merry christmas gift... a nice necklace... with purple touches in it... I liked it.. coz I can wear it with any of my clothes...

It was a great night with her. I missed her soo much... Hope the three of us (nik, van, and I) could go out sometime... back to the old dorm-apartment days... :-)

... not like i dont have a choice or something but that's my name. If only I could have the power to suggest a name for myself to my parents when they are deciding what to call me... duh!!!

oh well... here... got this from Monique, my besty ... while checking out her site.

..."Administering Intense Stimulation"... hmmm...sounds kinda... ????

so here i am.. blogging again..

it was a great day.. as far as i thought it would be.. not until now... well... just say, i discovered something which is, well... so UNJUSTIFIABLE!, UNFAIR!, an oh-where-did-the-basis-came-from stuff... a TOP SECRET as it is considered by those involved.. but oh... they should know that if ever that secret is knowned by everyone... it could kill them... haay... if only words could kill...

its just unfair to know that "some" of us are making our most effort to our job, doing all the hard works that we could offer..and yet "others" could just play around and sit... then eventually getting the most above everybody else...


anyhow... i believe in karma...

......

just got my new digital camera. from my dearest cousin! I love you Kuya Ernie!!! Hahaha! I picked it up last night and boy!!! it was really cool...

and then we chatted early this morning... giving him my biggest thank you... *wink*

.... just in time for the season....

now at least, I have something to smile on...

... is wonderful...

after watching this movie last night... all i can do is... smile...and feel the love inside me....

just in time for the season...

yes, yes... love is all around...

... perfect


and oh.. this part i love most...


(sorry nik.. but i have to post this pic too...just can't help it e..) *wink*

seen this movie?

Have you guys heard of this place somewhere in Binondo called ESTERO? Yup, yup! Last night we (me and some officemates..) thought of trying out the place... and beleive me... its definitely great!!!

We arrived there with our stomach drooling for something to digest... yung tipong nagkakagulo na yung mga intestines mo sa tiyan.. hehehee...One of us reccomended that place, so here we are trying it out..

and oh!!! no doubt.. the food is so soo fantstic! Para ngang may birthday and fiesta sa dami ng inorder namin... and so affordale too!

we had squid with oyster sauce, fried fish fillet, sizzling shrimp, chopsuey, and brocolli with oyster sauce. sobrang sarap! believe me!

now... you guys wanna try that place....

*wink*

last night was one of the worst night ever..

i am still having some kind of shock whenever i go back to the thoughts of what happened...

charlotte and i just had our dinner at waltermart.. then we had some coffee to finish up.. we stayed at starbucks for some chat since it was still early to go home...

then we took a walk heading to where we are suppose to take a ride home. Well, it was just a block across the mall... we are used in doing that walk everytime we take a stop at waltermart...last night was just different.. it was the worst, actually.. it was when i told her and myself... i would never ever walk along that area again...

while crossing the street, a man (whose appearance seems like a squatter -nearby-with-drugs-all-over-his-system) apparently grabbed my arm forcing to snatch my bracelet.. a silver chain which i treasured so much. that moment we freaked out.. really that maybe our voices can be heard right across the next block... just then,all motorist stopped in front uf us.. making this man tremble more, still haven't been able to get my bracelet in my arm... i felt pain while he's scratching his hand on my arm trying to unlock the bracelet.

I got really afraid... so much that deep inside my heart beats so fast... i thought what if this man just took a stab on me? what if he has his companions somewhere..i knew i should have my presence of mind... so what i did was... i yell at him.. saying.. "o teka lang.. eto.. kunin mo ng maayos... sayo na!" then he looked at me.. with disbelief.. maybe shocked why am i giving what he wants... he then unlocked the bracelet and run.. so fast he that he almost got hit by a truck.

Oh.. i thought, that bracelet cost something like 200 bucks and its not that expensive... so it would be not that much of a hurt... at least i am not hurt physically or that he didn't grab my bag.. which if it happened, I would really fight with him...

That incident just gave me another trauma... i wouldnt ever ever walk along that area again!!!

And oh.. my hand still has scratches which really is painfull.. I wasnt able to sleep because of the pain...

Before I sleep, i prayed.. thanking Him for keeping me alive... na walang masyadong masamang nangyari sakin... still have some thoughts running in my head... why are there such kind of people...why do they have to do that kind of thing?

.....

yes.. and as it is...

the answers are laid in front of me... without any second thoughts i knew i should forget it...

... i should be happy though... then in time... everything would be fine...

meanwhile...

gotta go get some coffee...

yesterday i was again attacked by my sickness --- SHOPPING! i told you it is my therapy...

i am really really bored at home so i thought of going to the office to do some digitizing work for our docu. well, i went first to my friend's office somewhere in ortigas to pick up something and from there i headed straight to INQ TV instead of going home. I arrived lunchtime.. which of course, together with some officemates, we took our lunch...

i know i have to digitize videos and organize other materials for our docu, which so happened i wasn't able to do because our dear dsr player just failed to work again... for the 2nd time... (the first time it took 48 years before it was fixed.. i wonder how long would it take now...) i should've use the camera but the avp team is using it... so, anyhow... i can't do anything... meaning... i've nothing to do TODAY!...

I wonder where to go.. would i stay here at the office for some net stuffs or would i go somewhere more enjoyable??? hmmm...

i decided to go to the mall... yes.. to the mall...

one thing about me, i am easily tagged not by clothes or anything... but with home accesories...

i was just walking along that department and the last thing i know, i have just bought new pairs of carpet, a dish organizer and 4 pcs pf wall frames.. where i intend to place our pictorial photos...

i felt relieved and a tinge of gladness got to me as soon as i started to decorate my little crib. It looks more "homey" now, i guess... just need to add more touches on it so it would look a bit different from before...

... hoping it could help of not missing someone.... (and oh! i have accidentally and not intentionally broken the 2 glasses which we bought together... somehow telling me... forget it...)


will post pix soon....

it is not easy to give up on something soooo much important to our life. To me, it's like the same as giving up my whole life. I dunno... maybe I was just having a so-disorganized-mind-rumbling-over-a-so-disorganized-thoughts lately. How I wish I could just press my "pause" button and let things sink on my mind before "playing" it again.

How can things be so different... so complicated that i often found myself staring at a corner and everything seems to be... "blank"

I have lot of things to do... lot of things to accomplish... but I can't find any reason for it...

All I wanted now is a clear mind... a clear answer to questions drooling on my mind....

... the thing is.... i know where to find the answer... I am just afraid to know it...


.....sigh!

spotted this nice mini at folded & hung yesterday and immediately tried it on. i know i should have it! but... whoah... the one that i tried was the smaller size, and of course it doesn't fit! hehehe! I was just hoping I could have something that has the S tag on it. *wink* Then I tried the Larger size.. and nyee!!! it's so big for me.. then I asked the sales attendant for the medium size... and she checked their stock... while waiting I saw that their tops was on 50% discount and the one that i liked most was on sale! if that skirt is available, i told myself, i should get that top too... then here comes the sales girl saying there's no more stock! Whoa!!!! whaatttt???? I wanted the skirt and I can't get it! So sad!!! I will come back this weekend to check wheter a new stock has arrived...

....

why is it that everytime that i would pay my bills, i always get irritated with first, the long lines and second, the tellers. really, they screwed my day up.. seeing them giggling, making this "chismisan" while encoding stuffs to their computers and while the lines are getting long. And then seeing them do their work is like picturing a slow motion picture which you wanted to scream and say "can you make it a bit faster, please???" Hah! well, it took me an hour before I could settle everything...

worst... my electricuty bill just came in this morning... which means i have to get back there and fall in line again... if only it arrived yesterday.. e di isahan na lang sana... oh well...

....

it was unusual that i go to bed early.. usually i sleep at around 2am or beyond that but not as early as 12am... but last night seems sooo different. I was feeling soo tired and all (was the stress of paying my bills a factor?) I wanted to rest.... I headed to my bed 8:30 in the evening and just when I realized, I fell asleep and woke up 12 midnight feeling some cringe on my stomach... I am hungry!!! I want something to eat.... I grabbed charlotte who also happened to be on the lookout for food, and in the midlle of midnight, we are walking across the block from our apartment... tadah! we are having our midnight snack at jollibee (thank God, there's a 24-hour fastfood nearby)....

....

he's not going home again... "enjoy the night", he said in a message he sent... but how? maybe i was just used of being with him most of the time.... am i missing him???

Ugh!

Still this is what I am feeling right now...

right after a sad news I got yesterday... after an abrupt decision which leaves me with no choice...after he broke a statement casually... leaving me standing still... wondering what happened...

I never want him to leave... everything was so ok.. so fine... until that weekend that brought some tense on my nerves...when I suddenly felt there's something wrong...

I know it has nothing to do with me, or with him... there's nothing wrong with US, actually. Outside factors (which happened to be a "hands-up" for me) that pressures him to leave.

I know and I can feel theres more to his shallow reason. What he told me and the others is not merely the whole point of him leaving. He's just making things light when in fact I know there's something to talk about.. especially us.

I hate myself of not having the guts to ask the real problem... of just letting things happened this way.. but it is not too late though... I can still work things out.. or maybe I shoud say, WE WORK THINGS OUT... but what if we can't?

I am not stupid enough not to notice the change of mood that we are having. Or maybe I am just dealing with this so much that I am becoming so affected.

but then... i know myself... more than anybody else does...

i know... I can go over this....

It's the first day of the Yuletide month... I can already feel Christmas wherever I go.. from the extravagant christmas decorations at malls, on the streets, offices, every establishments, I can hear christmas carols all around the corner, people rushing off the stores for their christmas shopping, the mark-down sales on every malls, children's faces looking forward for that gift-giving moment... and oh... my old christmas list, which I had last year, having the list of my 17 inaanaks then, which now turned to 20, my families and friends whom now, Im having the terrible time thinking of what presents to give them.

So, I know you guys also have your own christmas list, right???? I dont want you to have a difficult time wondering what to give me or so.. hehehehe! so I am making my own "christmas wishlist" which you guys might want to consider on your shopping... *wink*

No! no! no! this is not to pressure you ao anything... just a simple wish list so you wouldn't mind asking what I want....

so the list goes...

> I am into the urge of collecting boxers now.... you might want to try herbench... i saw a lot there... :-)

> Home Accesories... anything to add kakikayan to my dear crib...

> True Star by Tommy Hilfiger or pwede na ring Be Clean by Bennetton

> Flipflops! Kahit hindi Havaianas, owkei lang!

> Get Happy Earrings! Oh! I love them.. soo much!

I still have lot of things on my mind now... but still have to organize my thoughts. But anyhow... at least I already gave you an idea... right???? hehehehe!!!!

Advance Happy Christmas Everyone!!!

Finally! had another quality bonding time with my besty, as we had her post birthday treat. It's just the two of us.. at the Festival Mall. (sad we had no pix to post) But its fun, really!

Met up at the mall around 2:30 pm... had heavy meal at Sbarro (since it would be my breakfast-lunch-snack in one)... lasagna, cheese pizza, and baked ziti, all with white sauce...well, it was a full meal though... I was really satisfied...

I wonder if she liked my present... i hope she does... coz it's one of those included in her wishlist... :-) Even I, do love that piece... *wink* It was the first one that catched my attention the moment I stepped into that store. I also hope it fits.. hehehe!!!!!

Then we checked out some shops for her suite. Which she will be using on their upcoming photo shoot for their website. A very formal suite according to her... and we end up buying this cute-casual-funky-cool jacket at freeway... which could also be used as a suit! Now, can you picture that? hahaha! I know she will post it in her blog so better check it out. :-)

Splurging must be running down on our mind that we found ourself buying this spag top at the cheapest price we know... 90.oo! Haha! We tried it on and tadah... found ourselves on the cashier buying it.. then a new timepiece for 125 each... Buy One Take One daw for 250.00...it was a nice watch that can do for everyday use...

We may not be togetther the whole day... I guess this is another good thing on us.. we may never be together that much but we treasure every second.. every chance that we could spend together....

now.. here are the other takes from our photo shoot... i just find "us" cute... so, im sharing it to you...

(front row l-r) Leslie, Kuya Rey, Kuya Art, Kuya Chino, and Kuya Ed

(Back row l-r) Charlotte, Allan, Sherwin, Cheri, Alfred, Krispy, Dhes, Sir John, and Me

looks and seems like a one big happy family... right???

it's exactly one month from now... and it's christmas!!! Once again, another season of gift-giving! weehee!!! but of course more than anything else, it's the birth of our Savior, our Father, our Lord... Jesus Christ. Time for peace, love, and forgiveness... a good welcome to the coming year...

I wonder.. what will 2006 has to offer...hmm...

But oops! before anything else... I would like to give my besty a very HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hey nik! It's your 26th anniversary! I know ur having the time of your life... you already had the gifts you've wished for since last night... and of course... "save the best for last" hehehe! I wish you more blessings, more winning cases, and more more more happiness! I love you very much besty and I will always will... mmmwwwaaaahhh!

now... back to my christmas sentiments... well... not really a sentiment but there are things that I am really looking forward to...

===> Our docu project. I really do hope we would make it big time. December 15 is the target date of airing and hopefully we could make it by then. Some interviews has been done but still more of the key people are missing, which of course we "must" have. Video materials have been in for some.. and still have to double time for more materials. I know we, the post prod team would be the last to have this "ngaragan" work... I guess, we are ready now... just waiting for the last materials to come in.... And this project make its way... whew! Everybody would have a bountiful christmas, I swear!

===> our trip to Bicol. In time for Allan's wedding on the 27th... we'll be leaving early morning on the 26th (yep, right after christmas) and be back on the 28th just in time for Lanie's wedding. O di ba... hindi naman kame masyadong busy. It's just that we would want to be present on the most important day for our two officemates who are tieing their knots. Plus, the wonderful roadtrip experience. Well, it's going to be my first time in Bicol (Buhi) and I am really excited!

===> Christmas shopping. I love this part! Especially the gift wrapping and labelling of gifs. It really feels good to give presents to those special to you (and sige na nga.. even the not-so-special). Expecting nothing in return... just seeing the smile on their faces. But of course, it would be great if I could receive presents too!!! *wink*

===> Family reunions. Whew! How I missed everybody.. soon, we'll see each other again...

===> My upcoming trip abroad. This part, I am really looking forward too. But as for now, I dont want to think of my expected expenses there.. I just want to enjoy the thought of spending the first part of 2006 there... :-)


... and now, i gotta go back to work.. i remember I have 3 more scripts to write... and my deadline is... in 3 hours from now... waaah!!!

as part and preparation of the 20th anniversary of Philippine Daily Inquirer, each department had their respective photo shoot to be used on the supplementary to be release sometime in December...

and we, at INQ TV.... are these...

same take???... then spot the difference!!! hehehe!

cute namin no??? violent reactions???

:-)

tuesday and wednesday night was a movie marathon night...

had nothing to do, so decided to burn myself into the boobtube and go away with time...

because of the hangover with the goblet of fire, i started it off with a marathon of harry potter's last three episodes.... sorcerer's stone, chamber of secrets, and the prisoner of azkaban... though i've watched all these three on the big screen, it was nice to go back with the movie again and see how harry turned into a handsome.. oh! a cute little guy and how hermione bloom into a lady. I may got a little "bitin" with the goblet of fire but i do hope the next episode would be a worth... since of course it would be the last one.

It was a little hassle though because i have to exchange the prisoner of azkaban to another copy at the video shop coz the one that i got couldn't be played at all. I shouldv'e finished watching it tuesday night but since i have to wait for the next day to exchange it, i made it just last night...



followed by Honey starring Jessica Alba... ohh.. she has a great wonderful body!!! I envy her! It was a usual story on determination and success... a feel good movie though. I've watched her in "Into the Blue" and no doubt with her moves.. I liked her! Only if I could a body like hers... hahaha! Now, I wanted a body bag that she's using in the movie.. I saw one at Powerplant... and it's kinda cost a lot...whew!



I also had "The Machinist" starring Christian Bale. I was so surprised to see how he was able to trim his body in that way. Very different from his Batman character. Though I never appreciate the movie per se... but I like the way they produced it... no wonder it won the best cinematography and best actor award...

Ending up sleeping at around 5am...for two consecutive days...

I still had 3 movies to marathon tonight... the effect of not having a cable and a local channel at all.. i hope it would get connected very soon....

I was doodling on my friendster account when I thought about writing this stuff. As you see, there's this status icon on user's profile.. whether he/she is single, mariied.. or better yet... IT'S COMPLICATED.

IT'S COMPLICATED. Yeah right! And oh, that's my status on my own account. Why complicated?.. uhhh... because it's simply complicated.

It has been a tradition on my life that whenever there's a gathering, reunion, or just simple get-together, people would always look for my partner... or a boyfriend... then I would just simply say... "wala e"... then they would ask.. "why?" then I say... "It's complicated." This is one part of my life where I am very tired of explaining to those who are so stubborn to understand.. when in fact, I really don't have to explain though.

Of course, I am dating.. I am going out with somebody, I am with someone right now... but... we're not a "thing" No commitment whatsoever... both of us single, ... and... just having the time of our life. Why aren't we a "thing"?... bacause we can't simple be that. It's complicated! As this stage when both of us knew our responsiblilities and priorities... we simply knew what we want... and I guess, at this point... this is it.

More users have this status on their account.. different reasons, different stories. (Well I don't need to ellaborate my story here). It takes one to no one, I guess. Being complicated is just a matter of how you carry and handle the situation without being burdened and burned out. It's just a matter of enjoying every moment of it and being prepared to whatever end result that it may cause you... be it good or bad. It's on how you stand on every decisions that you make.

It's tough to stay single in this world where everybody expects you to be with somebody. But staying single is not about having no choice. Rather, it's an opportunity to make intelligent choices.

Agree?

decided to have a new look with my blog.... and i loved this! thanks to caz!

this ovehauling by the way is inspired by no other than, my dear nik... *wink*

any comments or suggestions... (i hope haloscan works this time... i dont know why all the previous comments go lost... ) drop me a line.. owkei?

... for breakfast... yummmy!!!!

so, waking up late isn't so bad after all... i know i have some works to do but not as much loads like the past week.

taking it easy... relax.. chill.... bringing with me a smile that woke me up this morning...

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

....can you find a train transport experiencing congestion and traffic. To think it was suppose to be an "express" ride, right? People would take an mrt ride for them to get on their destination fast and to get away with the normal EDSA traffic situation. And really, it sucks me...

I got irritated with the situation last night when I took an mrt ride to catch up with the visiting hours at the hospital somewhere in quezon city coz my dear yum was admitted. I'm coming from makati and since it was a rush hour and knowing the exhaulriating traffic, instead of taking a cab (which of course would cost me too much), i took the train.

The traffic on my way to the station is understandable... it was usual. But the moment I got into the station, I was surprised! I thought I was lucky enough to see very few people in line to get tickets... I was glad, I don't have to bear those long lines like before. ... And then the train came... Whoah!!!! I already felt suffocated the moment I setepped in... the aircon was off... instead all the windows are open... much worst... edsa traffic seems to be faster than this train! I should've took the cab!!! Grr!!!

It took me 2 hrs to get to quezon city from makati (Parang nagtravel na ko sa province!!). Imagine the travel time... which normally should be 30 minutes if the mrt is working right...

Last night was almost a nightmare...

good thing... I saw my dear friend... recovering from an operation... doing fine... though still needs more observation and rest...

Yam.. please get well soon...

Reality pushes me out of my comfort zone... and it sucks...

i hate feeling like this, more than anything else... my mind's not on the right track and thoughts just keep on coming to my head... paranoia...

"What you do not know won't hurt you" as the saying goes.. and now... I have known what I should know...making me a bit insane... making me wanting to get out on this thing called "myself".

... I just don't think things are going on my way.....

Me and charlotte were suppose to look for a digital camera for her. We went to the anson's event at glorietta activity center and there' we went around looking for a best deal digicam.

Just when I spotted on this Creative Muvo V200... an mp3-fm radio-usb in one. Well, I was targetting on an iPod but it definitely costs much than this one. When, all I wanted to is music while on the road or so not to get bored... plus a data storage... i'd better go for this one. (Next time na lang ang iPod)



I was brought to choose between NANO and MUVO because the former has more range of colors to choose from. They have the same price though... But I guess, I made a good choice...
This spending is never planned. Another moment of my impulsive buying. But no regrets or so...

Oh! Charlotte also got her new Canon Powershot!...

Yeah, anne was right!... these are some of the perks and joys of being single!

an angel talked to me last night...

a very different conversation from our usual everyday talks. with more warmth and heartfelt concern giving me the feeling of importance as a person.

The usual everyday updates of our activities lead to a more deep-down personal stuffs. I was surprised knowing we are already talking about me coz usually it's all about him. It was kinda different that he is giving me sermons and everything, as if we are always together that he can see eveything that I am into... giving me a bit of pinch to remind me.. "hey, hey, hey... my friend you seems to be on the wrong way now..." Honestly.. i have never realized it until that moment.

More than anybody else, he's the least that I expect to have this concern about my past. I remember I told him about it way way before and I was surprised he still remembers it all this time. When in fact, he's the kind to be very forgetfull.

After that phone chat, I suddenly felt uneasy... realizing that all he told me was right... surprised that behind all these boundaries between us, he still knew the real me and has the courage to make me realize that sometimes, im becoming that someone he didn't knew at all.

then...

Last night, I saw myself on my mirror... for a while i thought I am still maintaining the weight that i achieved the previous month... but.. ugh!!!

I'm gaining weight again!!! seing my tummy forming some flabs! no! not anymore!!! I have done so much to loose those fats... and.... I need to do everything all over again!!! Gym, exercise! and most of all.. DIET!!! plus of course, the secret I've shared with lanie...

Waah!!! ang sarap pa naman kumain ngayon!!!

Day 1 starts now!!!!

it has been a week full of surprises... Oh, not merely surprises but a bit of unexpected-things-at-unexpected-moments that well, brought some spice and adventure to the week that was.

Ysabelle, my cousin-sister spent her semestral break with me. We barely spent time together so it was a week of bonding time with her. Uh, though my expenses turned double, it feels great to be with her again. Going to malls, spa, food trips, and "chismisan"... we barely notice that she had to go back home soon. We have shared a little secret though...and she promised not to squeal. I tagged her along at the office and after work we have to go somewhere... somewhere she has never been to. And now, Im missing her... well, she told me she'll be back on christmas break...

Oh! Sherwin and I bought a new couch and an entertainment rack for the house. You should see our house now! I find it cute, really! It looks more homey and comfy.

Then this long weekend vacation... we spent at the province. At the cemetery...having to be with mommy... with the rest of the family. With lolo, of course!

Charlotte moved in to our place. I am very happy and glad that she's with us. Mas masaya pag marami di ba??? hehehe!!! So far, everything's going well.. fun!!!

Alman (he likes to be called as Lex, though) dropped by last Friday. By the way, he's the closest cousin of Doland. The last time we saw each other was I think, April this year. As usual, makulit pa rin. It was actually a set-up date for him and charlotte (of course, kagagawan namin ni Doland) and after their date, they headed to our house. He's still the same alman I knew before...almost have the same personality with his cousin. He has this habit of making fun of me by pushing me with questions like..."kmusta na kayo ni kuya?"... "ano na lagay nyo ni kuya?" Like... what???? nah!!!

Well... it kinda stressed me a bit... especially realizing that I got overbudget for that week... and seeing that my finances are getting a quite not-so-good-but-can-still-survive situation. Im crossing my fingers, still.

it has been a month...

i have been into my new place for a month now... and for that duration, I can't believe, lot of things happened... good and bad... i found myself on both sobbing and smiling emotions... discovering a new sense of life since I stepped into my new world.

I remember, 30 days ago... my first day into what I called as "my own crib", I found myself into a blank space.. some little stuffs with me and a pinch of cash to spend for my survival... and my dear friends (specifically bestfriend nik, yam, net, and seph) who helped me in my so-called "exodus".

Now after a month, that blank space is beginning to look like a home.. cozy and comfy.. with some of my personal touches in it. I found peace and freedom... serenity and security. It may costs me a bit too much but I am seeing the independence of being myself.

My crib is now an official witness to my deep dark secrets... the reason of my own being... the ups and downs of my life. Its my own nest...

I love my crib... my place... my house.

As I am beginning to feel the need of having an extra source of income, I'm glad God hears my call. He's is so good!

Just got a new "raket" as what we term it. I've got to write for some segments of a 30-minute TV show aired on one local channel. Thanks to franz! who believed in me! weee!!! I missed writing so much... I am so much pre-occupied with post production works that I guess, I really need to refresh with writing.

They gave me 3 segments to start with and yeah.. it pays well though. Still keeping in mind that I have to do good.. so as not to fail my friend... *wink*

Then after I had mailed them the first story that I wrote, I am so much delighted to received a message from them that they liked my work! wee!! Much more with the remaining 2 stories. It just feels so good that other people appreciate your work...

Aside of course with the extra income (they pay me for every story that I write), I'm happy that i'm into writing again...


I hope this would be a good start with them... sana magtuloy tuloy na....

Why do we tend to loose ourself to someone we already knew we can't exactly have? Why is it pretending becomes so easy when deep inside us it hurts to act like everything's ok? The very fact that this person who pulled our heart's string has already beed tagged by another person draws us apart from where we stand. And sometimes, the moments you're wishing to happen for the longest time of your life comes at the wrong time. When you have no choice but to let it go.

Still, you can't help but to keep a little hope in your head. Contented with the present situation and subconciously hoping for more....

When will this agony ends? Where will this hurting lead to? How many times more will I come across this ungratified emotions? When will I be fair enough to face the real truth?

Oh, well.. nobody can tell. This is just a piece of something I should be over by now. What matters now is the trust I have gained from someone which I know I have abondoned for a while. I should regain it even before that someone knows.

I have been bad.. been a bitch lately... a different person from what I knew myself as. And now I am thinking...

Wondering.... it feels good to be different... sometimes...

Today marks the 9th year anniversary of the most humiliating story of my life...

October 14, 1996...
TIME : around 2:00 pm
PLACE: Welcome, Rotonda (That place where Burger King is now.. but that time it was only a vacant lot and a small Dunkin Donut Store on the corner)

Yes! it was the most humiliating part of my life! A moment I would never, ever forget in my entire life.

It was my besty who witnessed everything... well, I should say, took part on some of the incident. And it was because of her why I was there. I remember Shakey's España, that jeepney ride along España road up until Welcome, Rotonda, Celine Dion (Falling Into You album), and of course, that Dunkin Donut Store.

Since as I said, it was the most embarassing part of me, I better not divulge the whole story.. you might want to ask my besty but I guarantee you, she'll keep her mouth shut. Right, nik??

And that incident brought the bond that we have now... as bestfriends...

And oh! I still have that stuff with me until now... sealed on my closet... *wink*

The very sense of the word "independence" ... at first i thought as simple now seems to be more complicated. I know a lot of people who are dying to get this... especially the young ones who are craving for their freedom... for doing what they want... without any hesitations and compromises from their parents.

It was merely a decision for myself to be independent. Of course, I should be. Right after my mom left me... and my dad has to concentrate on other "things", there's nobody left for me to depend on. I should do it on my own. I have to survive... and I wanted to prove something... whatever it is...

It was hard... really HARD. Believe me, I have to undergo a lot of challeneges that I almost give in... thinking and asking myself: "did I really made the right decision?". But then I thought, whatever it is that I choose, I have to stand up on it and prove to everybody else including myself that I CAN DO THIS! That I can make my Life....

Moments I haven't experienced when my mom was still with me arises the very moment I stepped into the real world. Financially, emotionally, every aspect of my life has changed. I have to live differently from before. Now I have to be more responsible.

I work hard to pay for my living... rent, food, clothes, groceries, household need, pang-gimik, and those "sometimes" I give to my relatives in need. It feels so good to have my own income, without depending on anybody else. I have debts once at a time, but I can easily pay for them.
I go out with my friends... watch movies, malls, night-outs, bars, gimiks... I can go wherever I want, I can do whatever I want...

RESPONSIBILITY. The very word that I am carrying all through this. Everybody tells me: "you have to be responsible in your actions". Yeah right! But I guess it is not applicable only to me... but with everybody else...It just so happened that I am living all by myself. But, in all honesty, I know I have been handling this "responsibility" thing very well... so far... *wink*

It was also in this stage of my life when I learned who my true friends are and how true are the people that surrounds me. There are those who will only use you and there are those you will stick with you even on the steepest road.

I have some pitfalls too, in my life... some things that I never intended to do but somehow.. well adds up to my growth as well. Of course I also brought a lot of mess into my life... but it never occurs to me to felt any shyness at all... instead, I am glad I've experienced them and just brought me to where I am now...

Where I am now is an almost dream come true. I may not get what I really dreamt of but still... there's a lot more time to move and reach for it. I may not yet have proven my worth but as a person... deep inside myself... i believe... a part of me is worth keeping.

One of my closest officemates at 20+ just tied the knot with her honey last saturday.

As she walks along the aisle, I saw a very beautiful woman full of love in her heart and happiness surrounding her face. Knowing her so much makes me smile because I know that this is her happiest moment in her life. From all her past experiences, I guess she just deserve to be happy with this man she's going to be with in her entire life. The man who lovesd her more than anyone and anything else. I know everybody would agree with me...

And as they exchanged their "I do's", I wonder, she's just so lucky to find true love after a hurtful relationship. God is so great that he gave her what she deserves. Jojo is so lucky to have my friend...well. I guess both of them are lucky to have each other.

Then I thought, marriage is the time of our life when we have to take onother step, another level, another chapter of our life ... where we have to face a different world. It is when we decided to be with someone for our entire life. A big decision to make...na kelangan panindigan.

So much when I realized, it is a big world where I am, being single... more to explore... more to discover. Sometimes I told myself "It's happy being single"... having a relationship with someone, going out, being free... but... if that time comes when I have to get married, will I be ready for it?

I am actually excited seeing myself walking on that aisle.. as my man waits for me at the altar... when all my closest friends and relatives are there... when everybody smiles for us...but... what about after? The life after marriage?

*wink*

I was just so happy to see my friend contented with her life now... full of happy dreams... soon to have a wonderful family of her own....

now i am into a new place... someone has again came into my life... whom i knew is not exactly the man that I can have...

I am being unfair... i am hurting someone else's feelings... this is not right....

I know from the very start, complicated things could happen... but I allowed it still.

Now I'm torn.. between what should be the right thing to do and my hapiness....

which one should I choose?

haven't been so happy like this...

last night was one of the wonderful night I had...

:-)



Updates:

moved to a new apartment. A better one I guess... having the sense of "at home" feeling inside me. After all, it was a good move to make. Glad my friends are there to help me. From moving out my stuffs to the final cleaning of the new place. They were all great.

Thanks to Kuya Art, Kuya Chino, and Kuya Erwin from my INQ TV family for helping me from the transportation and that so-hard "pagbubuhat". Buti na lang mga macho sila... Kayang kaya! weee!!!!

To Yam, Net, and Seph... my angels who helped in cleaning the house. You were the best!

Nik... my besty... from saving me from my shortcomings. You know that besty!!! I love you so soooo much!

Still, I have a lot to make in my new place. One by one I know it will look more "homey"

Hope I couls post pics soon...

Theres this Film Festival called "Cine Europa 8" , a collection of short european films happening now till October 2, 2005 at Shangri-La Cineplex.

It's a free admission festival on first come first served basis. So I tried to watch one film last night. "Villa des Roses "... a bittersweet story about the other side of love and romance.

I was just surprised to see that a lot of people are patronizing festivals like this. Of course aside from the fact that it's free, the quality is very good as I could say. I can only understand them right after the film. The reason they are giving a free admission is for the people to recognize how good they are in producing films.

Honestly, I am impressed. Effects, transitions, acting, productions, well... thumb's up.

Tonight, we'll watch again the remaining films... If you guys want to try it, better be at the cinema earlier to get a seat.

I got a new ear piercing! Hehehe!! Courtesy of my besty Cleng.

Felt like I want a "simple" change...

So I got one... And I liked it!

*wink*

Its the WAVE 89.1 's D' GATHERING held at Robinson's Galleria Trade Hall last September 24, 2005.

I'm glad Anne gave me two tickets so I had with me Chris, my cuzin to watch our favorite bands. It was a night full of fun. Well, I had it also to overcome my "stressfull mind". I am happy Chris is with me that night. Knowing she's the only one in the "household" who understands me... with all the things that has been happening lately.

There are lot of performers that night... But nothing compares to our favorites!! M.Y.M.P, U-Turn (cute ni Bam!), I like the performance of K-24/7 though it's the first time I saw them perform. Kyla, my all-time favorite, South Boarder... and more!

Our night may not ended well because... ohh... Chris... you know why. But definitely, even if we have to left the place at exactly 12 mn (which we called ourselves as cinderellas) we surely had fun.

Thanx to Anne!!!! and of course.. thanx Tin!

Remember that presentation I did for Maggi? Well, I just had it presented to them today. Right after I emailed my project the other night, they called up yesterday and told me to report today for final assesment.

And there it goes. I thought it would be as simple as it seems but the moment I was there, inside that room, in front of the Accounts Supervisor, I felt some cringe on my stomach.

He told me to present my project like I am on the actual presentation. Like as if there's a panel of clients in front of me... imagine myself presenting a project proposal to couple of peeps. What the @*%! How in the world can I imagine a lot of people in front of me when in fact he's the only one there? Plus my heartbeat keeps on going fast! "Bahala na si Batman", I thought.

Then I started to talk. In fairness, I guess I did well. The nervous on my system slowly "depreciate". Most especially when Chris (he's the accounts supervisor) agreed to most of my explanations. And I believe I didn't look stupid. (I hope so!) But the fact that it has been 3 years since I last had a presentation like this, it is really a hit on my stomach.

Then he tested my "analytical skill" as they called it. He presented me a table of 2 sets of data, and asked me to define what's wrong with it. There's a little error on their data and he asked if I could point out what is it. Fortunately, after three attempts, I did it! Which I am happy about.

One good thing, is that, Chris has been nice to me and charlotte (my officemate... we both applied for the job). We never felt any awkwardness with him. He made us feel relaxed everytime we had interviews. According to him, there's 3 vacant positions. Unfortunately, we are 4 who applied for it... and soon, we'll know whether we made it.

To rate my self 1 to 10... maybe 7 or 8? But of course, I dont want to expect. Let's just wait until Tuesday...

My fingers are still crossed...

Anne gave me 2 tickets to d' gathering --> WAVE 89.1's event this coming Saturday, September 24, 2005 to be held at the galleria tradehall, robinson's galleria...

My besty would be there too... of course not with me but I guess with her labbydabs, Oliver. Hopefully we could see each other around... :-) She actually won the tickets by joining wave's texting promo last week... you just have to see how excited she is for this... better check out her blog... (ayan nik ha.. free promotions ng blog mo...) hehehe! Thanks to Anne for giving me 2 tickets! I owe you one girl!

This is gonna be fun... I know! With whom will I be at this event???? hmmm.... still having thoughts about it.... *wink*

now i know how far can a so-called "friend" can go....

everything's just a matter of discovering on up to what extent they can understand and relate to you...

have i been so selfish for me to get this from them?

seems so unfair...

This isn't an ordinary day for me... really! And I dunno whether I should be glad about it or whatever.. coz... at the end of the day I realized... I have eaten a lot today!!!

I mean... for months now I have been used to eating not that much... oh! did I tell you I've lost like 20 pounds or so? For three months...I have been into this diet thing... and I could say, It was succesful. People have noticed the changes... and I'm happy with it...

But today, I cant believe I've eaten this much. For breakfast... I had jollibee longganisa meal (that is rice... take note)... then my post-prod team had lunch at Chubby China (I love it there, really!) Ang dami ng servings,, as in sulit!!! I had Beef Brisket Rice... which is damn perfect! Plus the fried noodles!! whew!!! then... for snack.. would you believe I had sukiyaki at Kitaro! Si emeric kase... hay! I thought.. that sukiyaki would be my last meal for the day....

Just when I feel of not going home yet.... aside from the fact that the rain didn't stopped for the whole day... I guess... maybe it's good to catch a flick for a while... So since Alfred is still at the office.. we took the 8pm show at G4. THE BROTHER'S GRIMM.

Pero si Alfred, nagyaya sa Burger King... kaya... hay! Though I only got Onion Rings and Iced Tea... Kasi naman feelingko nirerestore ko uli yung na-loose ko na pounds!

Back to the movie, i could say... hmm.... I liked it but i think it still lacks something. I dont know but seems like there's a lack of continuity in the story... or maybe in the sequences... But storywise, its ... well.. creative in a sense that it depicts some of the popular fairy tales I knew... Reminded me with Shakespear In Love...




Matt Damon and Heath Ledger star as Jake and Will Grimm, two brothers who travel from town to town to get rid of spiritual creatures. Not bad for a fantasy film.

On my way home... i thought... there's a little time left for us to be together at the office... 2 weeks is so fast... we are soon to have our separate ways...

.... sad.....

Watched THE PERFECT CATCH last night with Lanie at Greenbelt 3 right after the 7pm mass (which I attended for mommy's birthday)


A romantic comedy that will surely take your heart out! *wink*

Drew Barrymore is still the same cute girl I liked way way before. And Jimmy Fallon, he's... well.... funny though.

I had a great time with this flick. Well, a feel good movie where you'll find yourself giggling and laughing till the end...

I guess... 4 stars for this movie...

*wink*

We tried adobo flakes with kesong puti and the beef bolas with sweet and sour sauce. The food was very good though... but we enjoyed our final desert: the banana cinamon pudding! Now I know what to order the next time I visit the place.

Orange is no doubt the predominant color of the place, all the way down to the nectarine-colored bucket chairs. You might think you were in a funky SoHo diner were it not for the huge black and white stills from Filipino classic movies from the '50s and '60s covering the walls.

you might wanna try the place... affordable yet classy... :-)

Felisse... I hope this would be the start of everything....

Congrats for being one of the Jollikids Apparel models!!

I'm so proud of you...

As part of a so-called "test" or better be a screening for NESTLE's accounts and events manager position, I am here doing a sample marketing presentation for MAGGI. Which at this point, I am longing to bring back the good-old-advertising-days wayback college.

The specification is quite simple but seems like I haven't been into the marketing world for quite some time that most of the terms, I forgot. I am targetting the position moreso because of the travel thing that it encompass. I mean, EVENTS is what I am looking for now and here it is... just a matter of a simple presentation plan.

Tommorrow, I should email it to them... and I wonder... would my work be fine? good? or worse??? Hah!

It's mommy's birthday today... she's supposed to be 56 years old now...

She's the best mom ever... and im missing her so much....

But I know wherever she is, she's happy and peaceful... I know she's watching over me through these times... she's my ANGEL...

Mommy... how I wanted to see you... even for a single second... if given a chance... I wanted to hug and kiss you... I wanted to say I LOVE YOU....

Thank you for making me the way that I am now... Of all people, ur the most who understands me... ikaw ang kakampi ko... ikaw ang BESTFRIEND ko....

Happy Birthday mommy... I may not be there to visit you... but deep inside my heart, you will always be occupying the biggest part of it...

I MISS YOU!

hay!!!

andito ako ngayon sa 20+... sa dati kong office... sa dati kong cubicle... eto nagbloblog... habang hinihintay si bambam...ayoko pa kasing umuwi.... di ko pa feel.. ayoko kasi mabadtrip...

hay... nakakamiss yung pwestong to.... tong pc na ginagamit ko ngayon... dati, sa akin to... walang pwedeng makialam... pero nakakatuwang isipin na ganitong ganito pa rin ang itsura nya mula ng umalis ako. di nila iniba ng ayos... pati yung mga souvenir na iniwan ko dito... nasa pwesto pa rin. nakakamiss kasi ang sarap ng working environment dito... imagine solo ko tong kwartong to... tong table na to... nakakatuwa rin kasi nakapost pa sa cork board yung mga pictures namin...

actually... muntik na akong bumalik dito... kung di ako napabilang sa naretain sa work ko ngayon, malamang dito ulit ako... which is ok na ok sakin... iba kasi mga tao dito. masarap ang pakiramdam kapag welcome ka sa isang lugar... kapag nakakarelate kayo sa isa't isa at lalo na kapag jive lahat ng characters nyo... mahirap kasi pag nasa isang lugar ka na hindi ka maintindihan ng mga kasama mo...

masaya dito.. kahit naman sa office ko ngayon masaya din. kasi kahit may indifferences, nagkakasundo pa rin.. walang rules.. walang do's and don't... basta alam mong di ka nakakasakit ng tao... at ok kayo.... go lang ng go.

kung bakit ako nandito ngayon... wala lang... namimiss ko lang sila. at kahit pa mapagisipan ako ng di maganda.. keber! basta't malinis ang kunsensya ko. I cannot please everybody di ba...

Dito at home ako... dito kahit busy mga tao, walang nakasimangot... masaya pa rin... may alitan man, mabababaw naman. Di tumatagal.. bati na ulit...

Hay... ang sarap ng may peace of mind...

ewan ko lang mamaya... pag uwi ko...

No one can pull you down unless you allowed them to...

I have my own way... and i'm living with it. I knew where I am and the fact that I'm being responsible with all my actions, I knew my limits, and I knew I'm not doing anything bad... it's all enough to say I am worthy as a person... No one has the right to tell me, in front of my face what kind of person I am, especially those who never knew and can never relate on my way of life...

I know I can never stop anybody from thinking "bad" about me... it's their own opinion and I can't do anything about that...

And it pisses me off... of all people.... duh!!!!

but...as long as i knew I'm not doing anything wrong... that I'm not hurting anybody..., the hell I care!

"I am not rude unless you rude to me... I am not a bitch unless provoked! ...."

SURVIVOR .

That is what I am...according to a close buddy I considered as "My Angel". This morning he told me that again.. "sabi ko sayo e... ikaw pa... e survivor ka!..." , as soon as I told him the good news of staying on my job. I wanted him to be the first to know... but I can't help myself talking and sharing it first with my cousins... who were the first peeps I saw next to my officemates.. *wink* Maybe I would call him the next day, I told myself. But it doesn't matter anymore.... that good-morning-wake-up-call came up earlier before I could call him.

He is my angel. Why? Because he just makes every moment of my life brighter.. even if we are not together... even if we seldom see each other... even if we only talk on the phone most of the time... Because he is so true that he never pretended to be somebody... humble enough to be his own self... to cry without hesitations, to laugh out loud without embarassment, to show his imperfections as human... and he, too... has the strenght to let me know of my own imperfections as well, and accepting it as I am.

Not everybody is lucky enough to have his or her own angel in life. And I am blessed God gave me one. A true soul I couldn't simply loose... someone I've trusted my life with... someone I cared so much about...

He's a friend way way back... became close dudes... good buddies... then best friends... together we walk towards our dream... I am glad at this very moment, he already achieved the biggest dream of his life... and I am flattered to be the first to know about it. Still... he remained humble... still the same old guy I knew before...

At that time when I almost fall... facing the deep downside of my life... when I thought everything would end, it was his wings that saved me from my unimagined death. He embraced me with his both wings until I am ready to face the world again. To which I felt so secured. But that time when death almost conquer his way, the only way I knew to save him is prayer. What he always told me as the key to everything. And undoubtedly i knew it will work. And it did. God is so great.

We fell in love with people whom we simply can't have. I shared my love problems with him, and vice versa. Thus, tagging ourselves as "the hopeless romantics"! (Wee... corny pare!) Then told ourselves... someday... it's gonna be our moment...

I just have one prayer right now.... I pray that my angel would never leave me... just as what he promised. That even if we go on our separate lives, may the bond that we have never breaks and that till forever... we have each other....

GOD is so great! Another blessing came just right now... right at this very moment...

We just have our team meeting... the FINAL VERDICT... as we call it.... picturing ourselves as one of the cast of a relity tv, where there's someone to be voted out. For a clearer picture, we are, all in all, compose of 24 people here at INQ TV. And as I told you, INQ TV will be up until the end of the month. Meaning, we are loosing our job.

But there's still a chance of hitting it.. a one major documentary intended by the end of the year. And fortunately, I was included in the final 12 of the staff to do it. No final story yet but definitely it would push through. Sad, coz there are still others who didn't make it... and others who voluntarily gave way for others...

This is the moment we are all waiting for. Now that everything has been finalized, I guess... moving on is next. No more holding back or whatever. This job will only last for 3 months and so, I guess, a new life is waiting for me at the end...

At the end of the day, found myself with Lanie and Lindle at Starbucks Powerplant having coffee and still wondering... where would this thing lead us....

*wink*

it was not a good day for me... well actually even before the past weekend began. there are some things that brought me to my nerves caused by "some people" to the point of affecting even those who shouldn't be. oh well...

i guess the point of still hurdling to the issue is no use.... ako lang ang mahihirapan... so better be it... let them do whatever they want... at least in a way I've learned...

so I asked my besty for a coffee or dinner... to unwind... above all the present problems and situations we are in... good thing, she's available.

had dinner at Italliani's at MegaMall. It was the first time I tried in that place.. (I usually had Italliani's at Greenbelt). Actually, there's a lot of choices before we ended up at Italliani's... theres Sbarro (where we usually have our bestfriend's date), Spaghetti factory (which I haven't tried pa) and Dulcinea (where we argue about the servings)... did I forget something bes?



I guess it was a good choice.. coz the moment we stepped out of the resto, our tummy are so full... we find it hard to breath.. especially my besty... *wink*



We had Penne Arrabiato (Penne pasta with mushrooms, tomatoes and fresh basil in a spicy peppered-vodka sauce ) and Grilled Pork Chops ( pork chop marinated and grilled. Served with garlic mashed potatoes and grilled vegetables ) plus the warm accommodation from Rocel and Lea (those who were assigned for our servings)

It was Friday and the office environment is still the same... sad and quiet...

So Lanie and I decided to go somewhere... maybe a coffee or a flick... we decided to go to Power Plant...

Had dinner at Cucina.. I had the perfect Beef Salpicao in my entire life! Lanie had her Tuna Fetuccini. We just styaed there and talked about office. Memories, the experiences we had...

then watched THE LONGEST YARD .It was really funny though, we laugh out loud through out the movie. I really like Adam Sandler... even before.. :-)

It was a great night with Lanie. Sad, coz we just started hangin together lately.. we already did spa together, eat, talk, malling, movies... She's the closest person I have here... and I will miss her... :-)

Thursday... September 01, 2005

it was one of the great night we had.. we had 29 days left to be together... we wanted to make the most out of it.. so here we are... at 1920 Bar.. having the great time of our life... overtaking the thought of parting ways... of loosing our job... despite the hurt inside us, we wanted to smile.. to laugh... and to treasure every moment left within us...

i got the chance to read these two books by BOB ONG wayback college days through my classmate. And yesterday, I got my self my own copy.

I know these books are already an old best sellers but it is something that I guess I wanted to have until now. It just makes me feel good everytime I read it. Remembering my childhood days, I can't help but to laugh and relate to each and every detail that the author is showing.

These books shows the reality of our country... our culture.. the vulnerabilty of Pinoys... in a light and comical way. Non naman really comical but it'll just makes you say "oo nga no?" then smile...

I dont know how many of you who gotta read this post was able to read these books but really, I recommend it to you! I haven't heard any bad reviews about them ... maybe because, these writing are really wonderful!

There's still another book entitles "Ang Alamat ng Gubat" which I havn't read yet. I dont know maybe one of these days, i might find time for it.

I am wondering... in the next few months, where will I be? After the end of this month, will I be somewhere else? A different field? or still in the media world?...

Hmm.. I don't know. The scenario still doesn't sink on my head. But, everytime I go to bed at night, I can't stop thinking about the future.. most especially the coming weeks ahead...

Aside from myself, I am also thinking about my other officemates, especially the bread winners... I dont think its right that this problem we are facing now should affect their families, their kids...which is of course... undoubtedly will happen...

In a matter of weeks, everything will change... all of us here doesn't have any single idea on what the final verdict would be... but whatever it is I guess the best thing that we have now is that... we all have each other... walang iwanan... walang laglagan... tulungan hanggat sa makakaya...

Tuesday night... our Boss treated us for dinner at Dencio's Rockwell Power Plant Mall. It was his post birthday celebration with us.

It was 7 in the evening when we got there. But since the non-smoking area is still full, we have to wait within the smoking area until there's an available seat for the 18 of us. Sir told us to group ourselves, well to have the family style menu ordering.

Order what you like... Iba iba para daw masaya! Sir just dont have the idea what our group ordered... hehehe!

As soon as we got into the non-smoking area, we occupied the long table... as in loooong table. weee! It was really good to see us complete in get together like this. Then the foods arrived! It was the best part really. We have bulalo, sisig, chopsuey, sizzling squid, sinugba, lechon paksiw, sinigang na hipon, and more!!!! di ko na nakita yung order ng ibang group... It was really a big Fiesta!!!

The dinner was really GOOODD!! Everybody was satisfied... syempre Libre!!!

Just as we thought that night would end up that way....its not...

after the dinner we headed back to our base for "some updates" according to sir. I dont know why but all of a sudden we all felt some cringe on our stomach that everybody felt something is wrong... oh! not with the dinner, not with the food... but with that "some updates".

As soon as the meeting started, everybody just kept quiet. That "some updates" just came to be the biggest and saddest news for us. Sir have the hardest time of explaining to us in a way that we wouldn't feel that bad but in any way we felt really... really... unexplainable. Say, simply... WE ARE LOSING OUR JOB! INQ TV will end... up until the end of this month... How would you love that, huh?

There are some options however but in any angle... everything was clear... its time to move and look for a new job. The reasons are clear though... but of course we cant help but think about each one of us.. especially those who have their families.... our crews... those who are not earning that much.

The meeting ended up 12midnight.... still everybody has something in mind but speechless... The next day... all of us failed to sleep well... everybody was quiet... you can see resumes scattered around the office.. jobstreet websites....

coz it sucks when you know you only have a month to scout for a new work.

I wonder, was that night our last dinner together?