BITS AND PIECES

a last post for the year...

yes.. it has been a wonderful year for me... full of blessings, new experiences, opportunities, tests, challenges, moments of laughter... and tears, falling in love... getting hurt, transferred places... travelled... and more...

there's a lot to be thankful for... and there's a lot of lessons learned.

no regrets with everything that happened...

and im excited to welcome my 2007 with more wonderful and exciting experiences

I wish.... i really wish that....


ngayon.. maglilinis muna ako ng table ko dito sa office... para pagpasok ng 2007, maaliwalas ang lahat...




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After a long christmas vacation... here we are again... back to the office...

Now, im burning myself in designing a logo for a campaign program of a bank client. I started doing this design even before christmas but since, there are other "singit" workloads that involves christmas stuffs (christmas cards for clients, christmas party activities, post-xmas party events, plus the excitement of the upcoming long vacation), now is the time that I could focus on this logo design.

Good, I am happy, so far... with the look of the artwork... though there are still some finishing touches to do... more graphic effects... but looking at it... it's good.

After work I headed to the gym. I badly needed a workout. For a straight week - from the day of our christmas party up until yesterday-, I am drunk. Hehe! I know I have to burn a lot of calories. Marlo called me for a training. Good. Just in time.

We did leg and abs exercise. Perfect. Damang dama ko ang workout... Not to mention, after the stretching, I can feel the muscles on my legs responding to the squats and leg raises that we did. Ang sarap!

Pero... eto ang catch....

As soon as I got home... Minnie and Shaz called up....they are somewhere along Makati Ave... Gimik daw...sunod daw ako....

O sure!

Had dinner at home then met with them at Teriyaki Boy along Makati Ave. They had their dinner and then Ias tagged us at ...



Ayan! Parang di yata kami nararapat sa lugar na to...

Just like the crowd at Embassy...

Pero ano pa ba magagawa namin e nandito na kme... enjoy na lang!

We headed straight to the bar to get our drinks... it was my first time to try the jagermeister - A herbal-flavored bitter german liqueur, made from a blend of over 50 herbs, fruits and spices -

I had 3 shots of it....

Plus a rhum-coke and sml...

Meaning... after i burned all the calories earlier that day... eto na naman at nagrerefill na naman ako ng ibuburn for later....

We went home early.. around 1am...

Si Minnie lashing na! hahaha!! ..... kaya nga when I got home.. she sent me a message...

"JAGERMEISTER PA!!!!"

*grin*

A different Christmas for me...

~ I miss mommy... sooo much... How I wish she's here... I would love to see her even for a single second... I can feel her... But I want to hug and kiss her... I know it's impossible... I just miss her.

~ I have someone so special in my life... and the feeling of being loved

~ A long Christmas vacation...

~ A Christmas Bonus and a 13th Month pay.. (believe me ngayon ko lang na feel to, because in my entire life in media, di uso ang 13th month at bonus)

~ Spending time with daddy

~ and having more blessings...

THANK YOU JESUS FOR EVERYTHING!

Here's some pics....

It was a so-called "my night". I was not really at my system... something's bothering me... plus work stress... I needed to release everything....

Minnie also is the mood for singing...

So here we are...


Thanks gurls for the wonderful and fun time. You really know how to cheer me up. Special thanks to Cheng, na hindi basta basta sumasama sa mga lakad namin... at akalain mong sya ang unang unang present! *grin*

Minnie and Shaz... wala ako masabi snyo... anytime you're always there... labchoo gurls!!!

Isang discovery: Ibang kasama sa gimik si Erika. Nabibigla pag nalalasing! But I was really touched, gurl.

Oops.. si Bianca, present din... but she has to leave early... :-)


Maraming salamat sa inyo
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One thing I realized last night...

is that TRUST... is such a risky thing to give...

you have to stand by it...

no matter how hard the consequence may be...

Met up with besty VanVan last Saturday for our "exchange gifts". It was our yearly tradition. Sayang nga Nikay wasn't there. But we'll see each other naman this week hopefully.

After meeting Van... I headed to Greenbelt 3 to meet someone who plays a big part on my current "paranoia".

She's one of the fitness instructor at the gym who happened to know everything that is happening. Just recently we thought that maybe we should go out... talk about "things"... and so to clear "everything".

And we did. Last Saturday.

It was a great bonding. I discovered a lot of things about her.. more than how I thought she was at the gym.

And it was sincere.

Now, more than anything else... she gave me the real meaning of CHOICE.

Date: December 14, 2006
Venue: Jay-Jay's Inasal, Pasig City (Beside Ortigas Home Depot)

This party took a month of preparation. The so-called committees: Me, Bee, Erika and Minnie. The theme should be "the 80's". And every activity should relate into the 80's.

As early as 4pm, we started decorating the venue... putting creepe papers, baloons, sound system, etc.. to project the 80's look. It was fun being part of the preparation, considering this is going to be my first christmas party with 1ISA.

Last minute activities:

~ Me and the rest of the gurls doing the last hour of finding what to wear. Buti na lang malapit lang ang "F"....

~ Me and cheng buying stuff for the exchange gifts

~ Erika stressed out in segregation of raffle and game prizes

~ Our team presentation for the night (partida na late na kme nagpractice ha... still we won the best in presentation)

The FOOD: It was so great! Sobrang sarapp!!!

ALCOHOL: Overflowing!!!

In fact, may tama kme ni Erika! hehehe!!

Some pics...


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i am not ok.

- Been very busy with "work"... and christmas party stuffs. It's going to be a "back to the 80's" this coming Thursday... and, with only 2 days left, we are rushing things up... wit all the knitty gritty works... from preparation of props, conceptualizing themes and games, program, to actual decoration of the place... well.. that's why we are called the "committee". hehehe!

till now.. i don't have anything to wear pa... i am still scouting to where I could find any 80's outfit.. at least if I could borrow? ayoko na gumastos!!!

will post pics soon...

- I was hoping to have the best christmas ever... pero mukang malabo pa yata... now i realized, i have to consider things.... and people....

- My paranoia is now slowly going on its way down. I guess I shouldn't be thinking about it too much... nakakapraning e! I am happy we're getting stronger... and more comfortable with each other...

- For the past weeks, Tito Emil and I had a real great bonding... it's good I have someone to open-up with.. kasi wala si daddy and mommy... at least may shock absorber ako! I think its a vice versa thing for us... I was glad he also opened-up and of course.. I promised him I will keep my mouth shut... especially for the coming days... hehehe!

- Tita Malou, Ysa, and Kyla is coming this Saturday!!! Yey!!! May tagaluto na ulit!!! I can again eat real foods! hehehe!

- Last night, I was thinking... till when will this "thing" lasts?........

- I miss this blog! It has been days since I last have a time to post anything...

Sorry Nik, mejo natagalan.. (from her site, comes this tag)

well here it is... reviving my Thomasian spirit...


1. San building mo?
~ St. Raymund's Building... along Dapitan side, beside the Central Library...

2. Course mo?
~ AB Major in Communication Arts

3. Center of excellence ba yun?
~ Tinatanong pa ba yan? Of Course!!!

4. Nakagulong ka na ba sa main field?
~ yup yup...

5. Anong masasabi mo sa bagong fountain sa USTe?
~ Bagong fountain??? hmm... di ko pa nakita yan ngayon. Matagal na ko di nakakadalaw sa beloved Alma Matter e..

6. Nakapasok ka na ba sa Graduate School?
~ Once or twice lang yata...

7. Napuntahan mo na ba lahat ng sections sa Central Library?
~ oo naman!!!! pero mas madalas ako sa edtech center...

8. Nakapag-internet ka na ba sa Central Lib?
~ yah... kaso hindi palagi.. lagi kasi mahaba ang pila nun tsaka mejo mabagal pa access nung time namin e..

9. Nag-friendster ka?
~ sa central lib??? nung panahon namin??? nope... di pa uso friendster nun!

10. Nakakain ka na ba sa lahat ng kainan sa Carpark?
~ May kainan na ba dun ngayon?

11. Bakit ka kumakain sa Carpark?
~ di ko na yata naabutan yung kainan dun!

12. Kumakain ka rin ba sa may Dapitan?
~ Sinong Tomasino ang hindi kumakain sa Dapitan? Suki ako ng BRB (Yung porkchop nila dun!!! panalo) Almers.. ang sarap ng gravy dito... tsaka sa TAPSI!! ay tambayan ito...

13. Sinong paborito mong prof?
~ Yup NIk! We all loved Sir Jaleco.. hmm.. Ma'am Pepin.. and Sir Bong Osorio...

14. Paboritong subject?
~ TV and Radio Prod, Scriptwriting and Advertising

15. Maka-Growling Tigers ka ba?
~ Ano ba???? Kaya nga hanggang ngayon sinusuot ko pa Thomasian Jacket ko no!

16. Nameet mo na ba yung players ng USTe?
~ Si Latoreno na classmate namin na super bait... yung iba naman pagala gala lang sa campus.. sorry di kme close e...

17. Naka-akyat ka na ba sa isa sa mga puno sa Botanical Garden?
~ Nyay! hinde! pero one of the ost memorable place sakin yan lalo na nung sophomore year.... hehehehe!!!

18. Nakapagsimba ka na ba sa simbahan dun?
~ Of course...sana dun din ako ikasal... (kasi 50% discount kapag tomasino ka at dun ka nagpakasal!) harhar!

19. student number mo?
~ 96030367 (hahaha! id ko kasi nasa akin pa!)

20. Saan ka nag test ng USTET?
~ Sa Educ building.

21. Mahirap ba USTET?
~ Kung mahirap e di wala ako dito...

21. Anung org mo?
~ COM-ACH  (para masabing may org.. hehehe) pero nang lumaon naging active din sa CASA (Communication Arts Students Association)

22. Masaya ba?
~ in CASA, yep yep!

23. Nagkaroon na ba ng kuwenta sayo yung UST Health Services?
~ Ay oo!!!! sobra!

24. Nagpupunta ka ba sa Tinoco Park?
~ OO naman.. everytime na may school projects practtices. pero mas madalas ako sa Colayco e.

25. Naranasan mo na bang magpractice ng kahit ano sa grandstand?
~ Hmm.. madalang.. kasi mas malapit kme sa Colayco... and sa grandstand kasi sobrang crowded dun...

26. Alam mo ba yung Research Complex?
~ hmmm.. saan ulit ito?

27. Naholdap ka na ba kahit saan around USTe?
~ sa awa ni Lord, hindi pa naman.. but i have some classmates back then na suki ng holdap nun e!

28. E nanakawan?
~ not really..

29. E na-rape?
~ Inay Ko po!!!

30. Anung pinakaayaw mong lugar sa USTe?
~ Hmmm. yung sa may tapat ng hospital.. sa gov. forbes area.. lalo na pag gabi.. naku po!

31. Sa tingin mo marami bang konyo sa USTe?
~ Pa-coño, meron. Marame. - Second d motion nik!

32. Sa tingin mo bakit tigers ang USTe?
~ kasi malupit!

33. Di ba orange ang tigers, bakit yellow tayo?
~ Sino nagsabi na orange?

34. Excited ka ba sa 400th year ng USTe?
~ Syempre naman.. iba ang feeling ng UST alumni ka

35. Ilang units ka this sem?
~ i graduated year 2000... hehehe

36. Anung pinakamadali mong subject?
~ RIZAL... because of Prof Lapuz! Im sure everyone will agree.. hehehe.. marami akong nacompose na kanta nun!

37. E pinakamahirap?
~ Thesis... buti na lang si Sir Bong adviser ko!

38. Anung major mo?
~ Communication Arts

39. Bakit ka nag aral sa USTe?
~ e bakit ba? e sa gusto ko dun e!!!

40. Kabisado mo na ba yung UST Hymn?
~ "God of all nation...
merciful Lord of our restless being
sweep with your golden lilies
.... di ko na alam kasunod...
basta kelangan nakataas yung kamay mo ala people power pag kinakanta to...

41. E yung mission and vision?
~ huwwaaattt??

42. Anung tingin mo sa mga guard sa USTe?
~ sumpungin!

43. Anung masasabi mo sa uniform policy natin?
~ Nung college, maluwag sa AB e. Nakachinelas pa nga ako pumasok nun. Naghigpit na lang nung around 2000. - korek.. makikita mo ang ibat ibang style ng skirt and lamda.. tapos tsinelas kung tsinelas... di umuubra mga guard samin e!! hehehe!



MAI AND TIN!!!! now...its your time to get tagged!!!!

and the result is...

with a weight of 33.3 lbs....

LAT PULL --> 35 reps (i got the highest reps for this challenge)
BENCH PRESS --> 26 reps (a difference of 4 reps from the one who got the highest. she did 30 reps for this)

combined reps: 61 reps...

my standing: I MADE IT!!!

* with everyone cheering for every participants... associating each and everyone of us to our respective trainer... medyo mahirap magfocus that time. considering all eyes are on you... the first challenge, the LAT PULL, i thought was easy. Well, it's not. The first participant did a 32 reps, same with the second one. I was the third to do the challenge and I know I should do more that what they did. Both their trainers were on their side during the time they are doing the challenge. Coaching them... motivating them. When it's my term, I heard one of the trainers say.. "malakas yan!" and the other one shouted "go marlo!" . Then I saw him on the corner giving a straight look and a smile. I actually don't want him to be on my side kasi mahihirapan ako magfocus. I know that's why hindi sya lumapit. Then I started the pull... I was on tye middle of my 20th rep when I realized... syet! ang bigat na... i started to feel the heaviness of the pull... but still i can feel na kaya ko pa... and when I reached the 32nd reps, i heard everyone shouts and cheered "more!"... just when i realized i am on my 35th pull already... and when I tried to pull the 36th... wala na... di na kinaya ng powers ko...

Then comes the second challenge, the BENCHPRESS. I know hindi kaya gn powers ko manalo for this... then one of the regular member there approached me and gave some tips on how to do it properly. the first participant did a 20 reps, the second did a 25 reps... and i did 26. The two girls after me did a 13 and 16 respectively.

i never really thought that I could make it. considering that i dont have any idea on the endurance level of other participants. but really, i am glad and proud... that somehow I have made my mark on the club... not only me though... i should give the credits to marlo, for giving me the best training that i could ever have.

effect: my arms are so much in pain yesterday. it's normal though that the pain effect would be felt 2 days after a workout... good thing medyo nabawasan na ang pain ngayon...

last night, as i was doing my warm-up on the treadmill, here comes glen (one of the trainers) asking me to join the benchpress competition later. Well, marlo asked me first though... at first i was hesistant.. medyo mahina kasi ako pagdating sa mga machines e... pero ayun.. i said ok na rin.. for experience...

this will be the second time that i will join the gym's monthly challenges. the last time was the cardio challenge, in which me and mawel got the second place.. a bit difference of 2 minutes from the winner.

this benchpress competion now would be a contest based on the number of repetitions from benchpress and lat pull. with a weight of 30% of the participant's body weight.. haha! medyo mabigat.

though marlo and i used to do this during our regular trainings, i am still not sure if i can make it because this time, repetitions is the main focus.

but seeing him so eager for me to join the challenge, sige... i'll give it a shot. he will be the one din naman who will assist me (hopefully!).

winning the game is not my goal though. i just want to experience it. pero kung manalo, better... imagine one month free membership and a body scrub & massage package... not bad...

GOODLUCK DAEI!

on my way home last night, i received a phone call from my bestfriend...

saying that she'll be leaving on the 28th of this month for states... for good...

sad... remembering i just wrote something about her on my previous post also regarding her soon migration to states... but i never thought it would be this early...

i found myself, while on the bus, being enveloped by sadness... tears almost fell... with the thought of my bestfriend-cum-twin-sister is leaving... so soon...

i told her we shoud go out before they leave... but things are so complicated that she's not sure when can we go out... but hopefully next week.

i just can't imagine that this christmas, she and the kids are not here anymore...

i will surely miss her...

now i felt alone.. again..

As tagged by Anne ...

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.

Mrs. Gabatino.. my kinder days teacher who believed in me and accepting me to the class despite of the school's rejection of me. I am not in the right age pa daw. At 3 years old, the school wouldn't want to admit me. E that time I really want to be in school... i don't know what she saw in me but she secretly include me on her student's list as a "saling pusa"... an eventually ending up grabbing the 3rd honorable place at the end of the year... making my admission legal.. harhar!...

Sir Bong Osorio.. my mentor... my college advertising professor.. my thesis adviser.. the super-uber supporting professor who really loves his CA "kids". This guy made his mark on each of every CASAN's out there... he has this way of challenging each one of us to be at our best always...

Ma'am Pepin Aguilar... my sociology professor way back my freshman year. She's definitely a "thumbs-up" professor... giving us the reality of life... sharing her own "personal" life to us... and up until I had a work on media, she's still there... always available for interviews.. hehehe...

2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.

My BESTFRIENDS Cleng, Nikay and Van

- my real angels who always give their unconditional support to me in anything that I do. always ready to listen to my griefs and happy moments. sharing with me their life... and accepting the real me.. Cleng, my twin sister... my bestfriend wayback high school... she'll be going to the states very very soon... i will surely, definitely miss her and her kids drew & adrian. No one can ever ever replace her in my life. We haven't got the chance to spend time together but the bond is there and will forever be.... Nikay, the person who knew my deep dark secrets and my most humiliating experience... my takbuhan in times of "financial needs".. hehehe... (mayaman po kasi sya!) and the person who always understand me... in every decisions that i make... a "co-blogger" (with anne and others)... i love her very much... and VanVan, our so-called "conservative" bestfriend (pero di na yata ngayon eh! hehehe) who's always there to listen.. sya ang tagapagreport sakin kung ano na ba ang latest sa dati kong pinagpapantasyahan! hahahaha!


3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.

MOMMY - need i say why? she's the BEST MOM in the world... my angel, my bestfriend, if not because of her, I wouldn't be what I am now. And I miss her so so much

DADDY - just when mommy left me, he taught me (he may never know this) how to be independent. how? by letting me go on and live by myself. and the moment he let me go, i know i have with me his TRUST. i miss you too dad!

TITA MALOU - hay bakit nga ba? sya lang naman ang pumalit sa pwesto ni mommy in terms of being my labasan ng sama ng loob and secrets!

CLENG - you always clear up my mind

"D" - For showing that "friendship" between bestfriends is more important than anything...

4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.

Few isn't the word... there's a lot.


5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

MARLO - do i need to explain y?

NIKAY AND VANVAN - Kahit puro pang-aasar ang inaabot ko sanyo

DADDY- its just seldom that we spend time together that's why i miss him

KYLA my bebe

now im tagging... MAI, LES, ERIKA, CHUMMY... and you!

something strucked me... something really really bad...

i went blank the moment it hit me...

i found myself quiet.. still...

and then there is hurt... a bit...

giving me the hard time sleeping last night... not until i was able to clear up everything...

a short exchange of messages... a short explanation..

enough to bring me back to my system...

and then came the same old word called TRUST.

should i let this took over me? or would i just shut up and trust my instinct?

its a whole day photoshoot again.. just one of those days that I always look forward to...

bukod sa nakalabas ako ng office, this another time for me and bianca to try some specialty foods from various establishments..

this time.. the LJC Group...

thanks to their corporate officer Jerry Avena.. who accompanied us from Malate to Greenbelt. He was so cool. Actually, sarap ng kwentuhan... *wink*

first stop: BISTRO REMEDIOS at Malate

here, they offer exquisite Filipino Foods (actually the whole LJC Group specialty are Filipino Foods). What we tried here is the Claudes Dream and Sikreto ni Maria Clara.

Claudes Dream, an LJC bestseller inspired by chef-artist Claude Tayag. Its a pandan gelatin and young coconut on buffalo's milk ice cream.

Sikreto ni Maria Clara on the other hand is a "suman" and a ripe mango over a creamy coconut milk. Sobrang sarap!!!

second stop: CAFE ADRIATICO, Malate

he we tried the CHOCO EH...

a thick homemade spanish chocolate from pure cacao. This one remind me of my mom when I was a kid when she usually buy a whole cacao in the market and then she'll manually stir it to make a pure hot chocolate...

third stop: CAFE HAVANA, Greenbelt 3

Vodka at 4 o'clock in the afternoon...


Mojito as what they call it is the Cuban national drink. It is a vodka from lime-rum-mint leaves. It was my first time to try it and belive me.. it was great. *big grin*

Bianca and I almost wanted to finish the pitcher that they served.. pero syempre medyo nakakahiya. hehehe...


last stop: BOLLYWOOD, Greenbelt 3

You can immediately feel the Indian Mood the moment you enter the place. It offers exotic, traditional tandoor cooked dishes and the excitement of modern Indian food and entertainment.


Tandoori Chicken Pizza is what they served us. Yummy! Non-bread pizza with the prominent taste of the tandori chicken... wee!!!


and then we headed to Pier One for a sizzling sisig which I am craving for days... hehehe

it was a whole day work and fun for me and Bianca...

and the best of all.. the foods that we had that day were all FREE!!!

i believe in it.

i heard that someone i knew back then is now facing the biggest karma of her life. Someone I thought I could trust, but eventually turned out to be the first one to put me down. This was way way back. Since then, I never tried to communicate to her (and to them) knowing that it was nonsense taking time to even talk with her (and to them).

That time was one of my hardest times. Imagine yourself being the talk of everyone, your life issues being enjoyed by everyone, unfair judgement from everyone, realizing that the some people whom you have given your trust now are the one throwing the stones on you.

well...

remember this post?

i wrote it for them.. after that I let go of the issue... i kept quiet... i let them talk about me and I didn't care...

anyway...

now i heard that she is facing the biggest test of her life.

then i thought... "dapat bang maawa ako sa kanya or just be glad dahil hindi ko sya pinatulan before dahil tadhana na ang sumisingil sa mga ginawa nya?"

i dunno...

i know i shouldn't be doing this post anyway... but im sorry i just can't help to say nothing.. i know i am getting mean...

now, who's the STORY TELLER?

and a message..
*facing court issues is a big deal, honey. i know. maybe you just have to face the consequences. this could be a lesson for you now... and i understand how you feel... i know you have "your friends" to support you... goodluck gurl!

November 3, 2006... at Maru Bar (along Strata 2000) ... 2 days before her flight.. going to Canada for good... we had this despedida party for her...

Even if I only known her for months, we were able to share a great and true friendship. Something that I would really treasure...

Sa lasingan, sa tawanan... di ko makakalimutan ang araw na pinagapang mo ko sa "friends"!

i should be asking you the question that haunts me for so long...

and i should do it now.

but there is always the fear

that i may not get the answer that I want

and so.. im preparing myself

whatever it is that may come out from you

i guess that's the way things should be

My cousin-cum-inaanak is staying with us for his sembreak vacation. He's taking up his philosphy course in a seminary somewhere in Odiongan, Romblon. (opo..malayo po sa sibilisasyon.. hehehe!) Glad that he's with us... the last time we were together was new year 2006.

He has changed. A lot. Surprisingly, he's not the old pasaway kid we knew back then. His stay at the seminary caused him to be a little "better" now. He's more "religious" now, so to say. Which i think is good though. Hindi lang siguro kami sanay na ganun sya. And the fact that our family is not that "strict" (am i on the right word here?) when it comes to religion.

It's not our routine to pray before and after meals, me personally, dont attend mass regularly.. or every Sunday, but I know my faith. It's within me.

Anyway, im glad that he's here. I missed him so much. He is may favorite inaanak.

And, since tito and I are free yesterday, we went out, with Ysa. Headed to Mall of Asia and bought him stuffs. Then ate out. Namiss daw nya kasi yung mga moments like that sa province.

And he's staying with us until the end of the sembreak. He'll be able to make it on All Saints Day to visit mommy, lolo and lola.

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speaking of the coming holiday, until now i haven't got the time to buy candles and stuffs. I know I should be doing it by now.

I still have until tommorrow to do it anyway. *wink*

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Extra challenege ako today....

My boss asked me to present 5 studies of catalogue cover for BPI. Due in 5 hours. haha! Well, I was actually prepared for it anyway. Kasi Friday pa lang, I already have the feeling na mangyayari to today. Erika already advised me na I have to make studies nga daw.

I was just glad, boss is in good mood earlier and that she already commended my work while im on the process of doing the first study. It motivates me. Ending up, I was able to give her what she needed. From the five studies, she had 3 choices. Then gave me some of her inputs for minor revisions.. and then tadah! She asked me to email it to her and then she, eventually forwarding it to the client.

Erika! sabi syo e.. relax! harhar! we shouldn't be affected by the pressure.. hehehe! Well, boss is actually giving her the pressure since weekend... plus the fact that the girl is under the 39 degree of temperature until now. Gurl, please GET WELL SOON!!! Because I'll be needing your rescuing power soon! hahaha!

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Will go to the gym later...

Need to check out on something....

and before i forgot...

this should be included on my previous post...

i weighed myself again...and im back to....

122 lbs!!!

whoa!!!!

had a great workout last night...

i pretty made sure i have the focus on "my workout" this time.. haha!

my routine:

warm up --> 15 minutes on the threadmill
followed by: 30 minutes on handbike (actually dapat 15 minutes lang din pero dahil sa na-corner ako ni marlo at pinagawa nyang 30 minutes. ang laki daw kasi ng upper body ko ngayon!)
then: 3 sets of 50 reps sit-ups
then: 20 minutes on the stepper
then: machines for triceps
then: 15 minutes on the bike
finally: stretching

i wanted to take the rotex pa nga kayalang di na kinaya ng powers ko. salamat sa overflowing free red bull that night.

i really felt great. with steam bath and sauna right after. sobrang relax...

i am very much satisfied...

but i als had a hard time sleeping last night

maybe because nasobrahan ako sa red bull kaya di ako makatulog...

... or because i am patiently waiting for something that was promised to me?

im ok now...

all the doubts are gone...

everything's back to normal...

TRUST... is the very word.

I'd rather believe in you than to anybody else...

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after that crappy feeling, i thought it was the worst...

there's much more to it pa pala... damn!

and i know that there is much more that i should look upon at...

or maybe i should just rely on my trust?

as long as i don't have the proof, i will still believe that everthing's ok..

kaya nga may word na "benefit of the doubt" di ba?

it wasn't really the kind of weekend that i expected to be. it was more than "bad" as i thought it would.

I expected so much... inviting disappointment to my system.

I don't have any choice either... or maybe I had. I just didn't (or at least even tried) to see the light in it.

I just thought that things are better that what it seems to be.

But its not.

it has been weeks, or should i say months, since we've last talked.

back then, we used to talk everyday. keeping in touch is in our system. aside from seeing him everyday on national television every morning and on primetime shift, we always make sure that we talk and catch up everytime we're both free. he would call me up on my cellphone and talk for hours, or sometimes we go out.. depende sa trip.

lately, it has been different. no calls..or even text messages. there are some but mostly forwarded messages. i wonder how is he? what is he doing? what's up with him?

i know what happened has been very hard for him. and i understand how he felt. i never said a word though. i just waited until he opened-up and tells me everything. and then he kept quiet. I tried to reach out for him but I can't even find him. maybe he just needs space.. some time for himself....

surprisingly, after months, i heard about him through our bestfriend. the past weeks i always asked this bestfriend of ours about him.. how is he doing...what's up with him. i did missed him so much. the fact that he never keeps in touch. I just assumed that he's fine.. coz i still see him on tv doing his works and he seemed to be ok naman.

anyway, our bestfriend told me that he's doing fine. that he is quite happy with what's been happening to him lately. Good. I mean, I'm happy to know that he's doing great... and that he's having the moment of his life having in him what he wanted the most. not like before when all i can see is the sadness in his eyes...a longing which he couldn't have... the hapiness he coudn't exactly get.


i may not know every details of what they have talked about but for sure, he's fine. im glad that he again communicated, even not to me, but still i know he's there.

i can't take away the fact that we are still friends... no matter what it takes. i dont know if he doesn't feel like talking to me or whatever but i am still here. i just miss the "good old days"

and i just wanted him to be happy.

as for me, i am. so much. i never thought i would recover from the pain that he unintentionally caused me... but i did... and im ready to hear from him again... because we are "friends".

of my blog...

after a while of questioning why the background of my old template isn't working, i've finally decided to have a new one...

and here it is...

comments and suggestions are very welcome...

Didn't go to the gym last night... instead, met up with Bespren Nikay over dinner at Sbarro.

Just a little catching up over what has been up with us lately... updating... and spending a little time together.

Sad... we forgot to take some snaps...

Thanks Besty.. for the quality time....

On my way home, I was caught up with this song... I just thought of downloading it because it was by DISHWALLA and I never thought I would love it as much as I do now...

on my way to work this morning, i noticed the signs all over..

there's a 3-day midnight madness sale at all the malls around the area.. SM, Robinson's Galleria and Pioneer.

Lech! expect the traffic again tonight...

and the shopahollic queen attacks again... oops.. i know my limits now.. that's why i left my credit card at home...kase delikado.. di ako magaling magcontrol kapag hawak ko credit card ko e.

there's a lot more to spend to like my regular thyroid treatment.. and bills... i couldn't afford to overspend again into some stuffs i dont really need that much. Im crossing my fingers...

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today is Friday the 13th... though i really don't believe on pamahiin, it just sounds creepy to me...

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my lower body hurts... sobra! the reason why i didn't go to the gym yesterday. This is the first time that it hurts this much. This could be because of the leg exercise marlo gave me last tuesday. Ikaw ba naman ang mag squats with weights, lunges and crunches for one hour. Nasobrahan yata ako.. or should I say nabigla lang siguro legs ko. Im planning to workout tonight so as to overcome this pain.. tingin ko kelangan lang sundan ng cardio...

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Almost HALF-DONE with workloads! Great! And its gonna be a weekend again! Perfect!

Though I have to come over to another raket tomrw... Need to finish some book lay-outs and design. Buti na lang madali lang sila kausap. *grin*

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Sarap mag BAKASYON!!! pwede kaya magleave ng matagal tapos magspend ng time ng walang iniisip na work or anything else????

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A shout out: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANELLE! The girl with the "longest hair" of Fitness First Wynsum! Thanks for all the kindness! Stay sweet! See you around!

BOXING. After months of doing my regular workouts, --- cardio, free weights, cross-trainings, etc. --- i thought (well marlo asked me to) of doing boxing training. I have one last Thursday with Mitch (another trainor at the gym which so happened to be his closest colleague and somehow we became close too). It was an almost 2 hrs training. She taught me the basics... Straight punch, job, hook, upper cut, and combos.

Now i know why they say that boxing is most effective when you want to tone your arms. Kasi you have to give your most energy when you punch. I guess it's an advantage to me kasi normal na malakas akong sumuntok. It was a feel-good training. Ang sarap ng feeling after.. kasi feeling ko lumabas lahat ng pawis ko and iba yung feeling compared to regular work-out.

I did good on straight and job punch... Im happy with that. Bad trip lang medyo nahihirapan ako sa upper cut.. hehehe... but i know eventually I can do it.. konting practice pa..

Thanks to mitch for letting me use her boxing accesories. And for being patient in teaching me the stuffs. And the best thing about it.. its FREE!! Thanks too to Marlo for not letting me pay for it... sana may next time pa ulit...

Well, actually supposed to be meron. Last Saturday he asked me if I want to do boxing again but no, I can't. After the thursday training, I have this upper body pain... na sobrang sakit. I know its the effect of it kaya di ko kakayanin na sumabak ulit sa sakit ng katawan. I'd rather have cardio nalang.
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Yesterday, it was a pamper-myself-moment for me. Had a body scrub and massage at Body Care, Fitness First Libis. Ang sarappp!!!!

I had the strawberry scrub applied on me for 1 hour.. then followed by a 10-minutes steam bath-- then a massage with a strawberry lotion. Perfect!!

Salamat sa GC ng Fitness First!

After the spa, had my hair cutted... shorter than the usual. New look ba.. *wink*

At the end of the day, I felt rejuvinated. Sobrang sarap ng feeling...

At exactly one week now, Milenyo hit the city... the electricity shut down...

Happy are the most who have their electricity on again for days now.. but as for me... and the rest of my neighbors (us who occupies that 2 blocks area... na tanging kame lang..) still suffers from this no-electricity-no-water thing. Nakakabadtrip makita na pagdungaw ko sa terrace, makikita ko yung kapit-bahay ko na nageenjoy manood nng tv... maliwanag ang bahay nila! Samantalang ako... daig ko pa ang naputulan ng kuryente! Lintek na billboard yan!

Now I realized the advantage of being a member at the gym. For I am able to use (literally use) their facilities every morning and before going home. Sarap kasi ngayon ko navavalue ang hot shower nila! har!har!
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For the past days I am super uber busy with overloads of projects. Cutting of deadlines, presentations, revisions... sabayan pa ng may pagka-makulit na client. Now, I am so overloaded... to the point na hindi na ako makausap ng mga tao sa paligid ko...

My apologies to anyone na nasusungitan ko... busy lang po ako!
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I know I should be able to finish more than half of my work today. Even if it means staying late for tonight. I have other things waiting to be done on weekends which means, kelangan mag-double time...

Ganyan talaga pag magpapasko... kelangan rumaket ng rumaket....

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Tonight... im hoping to be a special one...Up until Saturday... I hope it would turn out to be meaningful..

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No electricity...

No water...

for 4 days going on i dont know till when... ayoko na!!!!

Since "Milenyo" hit the city, we all suffered from this paranaoia. This is the worst of all.

I know everyone was affected. And some (including me) is still suffering from the aftermath of this super storm.

Leaving me with....

~ Walking from Strata (Emerald Ave.,) up to Magallanes (for me to be able to go home. Thursday. The day Milenyo invades the city. Ok lang kasi may kasama naman ako. Another adventure bonding with Erika. I know, walang panama ang 30-minute threadmill sa gym. 3 hours walkathon with matching rain... san ka pa???)

~After that walkathon, I found my crib in a disaster situation. Aside from the fact that there is no electricity (which I knew was nationwide), our water supply also went off plus, nasira lang naman yung bubong ko resulting to... may tumagas na tubig in one corner of my house. Syempre, disaster pati mga gamit ko.

~ For four days I have to go down on the ground floor para mag-igib ng tubig at pumanik sa 3rd floor sa unit namin. E sorry, isa lang ang timba ko kaya no choice kundi magpanik-baba. Talo ang cardio + strenght training workout.

~ No need to go to the gym. Since household activities are more than enough. Pero dahil sa init, I thought of going there on a Saturday.. pero wala ring wenta! Nanood lang ako ng UAAP game dun... Buti na lang magaling ang team namin! The Growling Tigers Won! Back to the gym, wala... mas mainit pa pala dun.

~ Have to pay 1peso/minute para sa cellphone charge. Grabe! Ang lakas ng benta ni manong sa kanto. Ginamit ang baterry ng kotse nya.. ayun! kumita sya dahil sa baterya nya!

~Hanggang nagyon wala pa ring power sa bahay. Sabi nila hanggat di nagagawa yung billboard na natumba sa tabi ng bahay, di kme magkakapower. Lech!

~ Buti na lang dito na ko ofc. May kuryente, may aircon, may internet... pwede kayang dito na lang mag stay???

Hanggang kelan ang kalbaryong ito??????

Here's a tag by Nikay. Oh please besty... don't make tampo na. I really owe you ONE BIG TIME. I will make it up to you very very soon... Just need to fix some things up...

I miss you...

List 7 songs you like, list them up and then tag other 7 people you know.
1. Fall For You by Shanice
2. Runaway by The Corrs
3. I Dont Wanna Wait by Paula Cole
4. Save Me by Remy Zero
5. Angels or Devils by Dishwalla
6. Where are you by Natalie
7. Stick with you by The Pussycat Dolls

Now im tagging... Les, Erika, Joebel, Rhein, Hi-D, Annej, Lot


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Lech!... sa mga ganitong moments nakakabad trip. May mga client na ang labong kausap. Pero syempre, kelangan ibigay ang hilig nila. Aba'y akalain mong ngayon lang sila magbibigay ng materials and apparently, they want to have a mock-up catalogue by wednesday!!! I am very sure, DI KAKAYANIN NG POWERS KO! Well.. im glad, my boss is with me. He knew its impossible.. buti na lang may tagapagtanggol ako... and im glad everyone's helping me out.

I need to go to the gym. Makapagrelease ng stress...

Goodluck sken bukas...

Tita Cora a.k.a. "tita ganda"!

you really are my life saver.

I owe you so much!!!

Take care there! See you very very soon!


Her wake up call earlier gave me a good news. Now, one of my major "problem" has gone. And its because of my super-uber-loving-tita. I was suppose to be with them few years back, when mommy is still here. But unfortunately, I can't. We haven't seen each other for like 10 years (tama ba?) and still she keeps in touch and still the same kind tita I literally run to when I was still a kid.

I know I owe you ONE BIG TIME for this. And I hope I could make it up to you in any way that I can.

is my thought today...

i wanted to post something... pero di ko masimulan...

it's just that a lot ot stuffs are running to my head right now...

pero still... the moment i started typing, everything just seems to be

BLANK.