BITS AND PIECES

last night, i attended the birthday celebration of ana, the executive producer of asenso pinoy (the program in where I do segment writing with) which also happened to be the christmas party of the group.

I have been with them for a month now, writing their segments and once in a while doing the editing too. This raket is a big help for me, actually, especially when the editing jobs was given to me also. Having a more spare time here at PDI helped a lot... I just don't know next year...

hmm...

Anyway.. i really felt welcomed last night... since it was the first time that I met all the staffs of the show (coz I only get to talk with mabel, mikoy, ana, and abet most of the time)... and they are all so nice!

Videoke conquered the night... bida ang magic sing! But no!!! I never sang.. I still have a bit of shyness last night... hehehe!

Anyway, there is a raffle too... It was not as big time as it is .. but its not the worth of the prizes that matters anyway.. it was the fun actually..

well i get these...

and edmark microwavable bowl sets.. oh! the mug is the show's christmas giveaway...

What can I say...

I was just glad I have them... another family to treasure...

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it was a great day to smile..

after all, i knew i have the reason to do so...

i was hoping i could come to work earlier than usual, when a Serena, our agent from Globelines arrives to accomplish some stuffs for my broadband application.. yep! im going to have my broadband soon!! excited!!! yipee!!!!

she stayed at the house for like an hour, i guess.. coz she has to do some business phonecalls and stuffs while attending to me.. duh! like I almost wanted to tell her "can you do that phonecalls later coz I still have to go to work and seems like were almost done anyway?".. nah! but I know that would be very mean... I don't want to be rude.. considering she's quite nice to us anyway...

so there she was... after all that phonecalls to other clients.. now, its my turn.. and believe me.. it just took us 10 minutes to accomplish everything... and our line application will be in this coming Sunday...

oh well.. the moment she left iur house, I immediately ran and took a bath.. getting ready for work...

this is the best part of everything...

i forgot to unplug my electric cooker and i just remembered it while shampooing.. Hahaha!! so i immediately "towelled" (is there such a word?) myself and ran to the kitchen, unplug the cooker... then Serena send a message... our gate is locked so I have to run down (with my hair wet with conditioner) to open it... hah! Hello!!! im in the middle of my shower!!!!!!

Oh well.. then i headed to the bathroom again to continue my thing when suddenly I received another message... I thought, it was, again, from Serena (coz she's some kinda makulit sometimes) but when I saw my inbox with the name of the sender on it... I stood still.. surprised... smiled.. it was from the only person on my phonebook whom I placed a smiley icon with... my whole world stopped.. at that moment...

I opened the mesage... its a simple "hi"... like after 3 weeks and 2 days, he finally says "hi" again.. this time through text. It was unusual for him to send text messages coz he always calls...

yeah.. somehow it made me smile... i felt relieved that after all this time I was afraid he's not going to keep in touch again... and after our last talk.. i thought it caused some mishaps... well.. now.. i know were still fine...

I wanted to reply.. so much that I excitedly typed my message (let me keep my message to myself *wink*) but when i was sending it... my network failed... so.. my message didn't get to him. Sad....

I know and I'm waiting for his call... hopefully soon...

I also know he has lot of things to tell...

So, if ever you read this... im just here...

Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas...

is how my dear Van called our date last night...

Vanny is one of my dearest best friend way back college... Like Nik, she's one of the first i knew on the first day of our freshmen year.. (well... she's actually the first one I talked to... we were the only people then on that classroom... the "early birds" hehehe!)



We've been best friends since then... but separated ways on our junior year when we take our own majors... but still, we're hanging out more often.. shared everything... chismis, problems, life... just like what friends should be...

So last night, we met up.. to update each other and to bond... for a while I haven't seen her.. she's been very busy lately that she failed to come in every gimiks me and monique had...

We had our dinner at wendy's. She wanted it there so we could talk daw. Van, I thank you for understanding the situation. It was a wonderful talk, really. Please do what I asked, ok? It would mean a lot...




anyway.. she handed me this belated happy birthday gift... a burned disc compilation of songs from "the art of letting go" album. well.. she really kew me, i guess that I really loved the cd... in time for what am i feeling right now...

and an advance merry christmas gift... a nice necklace... with purple touches in it... I liked it.. coz I can wear it with any of my clothes...

It was a great night with her. I missed her soo much... Hope the three of us (nik, van, and I) could go out sometime... back to the old dorm-apartment days... :-)

... not like i dont have a choice or something but that's my name. If only I could have the power to suggest a name for myself to my parents when they are deciding what to call me... duh!!!

oh well... here... got this from Monique, my besty ... while checking out her site.

..."Administering Intense Stimulation"... hmmm...sounds kinda... ????

so here i am.. blogging again..

it was a great day.. as far as i thought it would be.. not until now... well... just say, i discovered something which is, well... so UNJUSTIFIABLE!, UNFAIR!, an oh-where-did-the-basis-came-from stuff... a TOP SECRET as it is considered by those involved.. but oh... they should know that if ever that secret is knowned by everyone... it could kill them... haay... if only words could kill...

its just unfair to know that "some" of us are making our most effort to our job, doing all the hard works that we could offer..and yet "others" could just play around and sit... then eventually getting the most above everybody else...


anyhow... i believe in karma...

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just got my new digital camera. from my dearest cousin! I love you Kuya Ernie!!! Hahaha! I picked it up last night and boy!!! it was really cool...

and then we chatted early this morning... giving him my biggest thank you... *wink*

.... just in time for the season....

now at least, I have something to smile on...

... is wonderful...

after watching this movie last night... all i can do is... smile...and feel the love inside me....

just in time for the season...

yes, yes... love is all around...

... perfect


and oh.. this part i love most...


(sorry nik.. but i have to post this pic too...just can't help it e..) *wink*

seen this movie?

Have you guys heard of this place somewhere in Binondo called ESTERO? Yup, yup! Last night we (me and some officemates..) thought of trying out the place... and beleive me... its definitely great!!!

We arrived there with our stomach drooling for something to digest... yung tipong nagkakagulo na yung mga intestines mo sa tiyan.. hehehee...One of us reccomended that place, so here we are trying it out..

and oh!!! no doubt.. the food is so soo fantstic! Para ngang may birthday and fiesta sa dami ng inorder namin... and so affordale too!

we had squid with oyster sauce, fried fish fillet, sizzling shrimp, chopsuey, and brocolli with oyster sauce. sobrang sarap! believe me!

now... you guys wanna try that place....

*wink*

last night was one of the worst night ever..

i am still having some kind of shock whenever i go back to the thoughts of what happened...

charlotte and i just had our dinner at waltermart.. then we had some coffee to finish up.. we stayed at starbucks for some chat since it was still early to go home...

then we took a walk heading to where we are suppose to take a ride home. Well, it was just a block across the mall... we are used in doing that walk everytime we take a stop at waltermart...last night was just different.. it was the worst, actually.. it was when i told her and myself... i would never ever walk along that area again...

while crossing the street, a man (whose appearance seems like a squatter -nearby-with-drugs-all-over-his-system) apparently grabbed my arm forcing to snatch my bracelet.. a silver chain which i treasured so much. that moment we freaked out.. really that maybe our voices can be heard right across the next block... just then,all motorist stopped in front uf us.. making this man tremble more, still haven't been able to get my bracelet in my arm... i felt pain while he's scratching his hand on my arm trying to unlock the bracelet.

I got really afraid... so much that deep inside my heart beats so fast... i thought what if this man just took a stab on me? what if he has his companions somewhere..i knew i should have my presence of mind... so what i did was... i yell at him.. saying.. "o teka lang.. eto.. kunin mo ng maayos... sayo na!" then he looked at me.. with disbelief.. maybe shocked why am i giving what he wants... he then unlocked the bracelet and run.. so fast he that he almost got hit by a truck.

Oh.. i thought, that bracelet cost something like 200 bucks and its not that expensive... so it would be not that much of a hurt... at least i am not hurt physically or that he didn't grab my bag.. which if it happened, I would really fight with him...

That incident just gave me another trauma... i wouldnt ever ever walk along that area again!!!

And oh.. my hand still has scratches which really is painfull.. I wasnt able to sleep because of the pain...

Before I sleep, i prayed.. thanking Him for keeping me alive... na walang masyadong masamang nangyari sakin... still have some thoughts running in my head... why are there such kind of people...why do they have to do that kind of thing?

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yes.. and as it is...

the answers are laid in front of me... without any second thoughts i knew i should forget it...

... i should be happy though... then in time... everything would be fine...

meanwhile...

gotta go get some coffee...

yesterday i was again attacked by my sickness --- SHOPPING! i told you it is my therapy...

i am really really bored at home so i thought of going to the office to do some digitizing work for our docu. well, i went first to my friend's office somewhere in ortigas to pick up something and from there i headed straight to INQ TV instead of going home. I arrived lunchtime.. which of course, together with some officemates, we took our lunch...

i know i have to digitize videos and organize other materials for our docu, which so happened i wasn't able to do because our dear dsr player just failed to work again... for the 2nd time... (the first time it took 48 years before it was fixed.. i wonder how long would it take now...) i should've use the camera but the avp team is using it... so, anyhow... i can't do anything... meaning... i've nothing to do TODAY!...

I wonder where to go.. would i stay here at the office for some net stuffs or would i go somewhere more enjoyable??? hmmm...

i decided to go to the mall... yes.. to the mall...

one thing about me, i am easily tagged not by clothes or anything... but with home accesories...

i was just walking along that department and the last thing i know, i have just bought new pairs of carpet, a dish organizer and 4 pcs pf wall frames.. where i intend to place our pictorial photos...

i felt relieved and a tinge of gladness got to me as soon as i started to decorate my little crib. It looks more "homey" now, i guess... just need to add more touches on it so it would look a bit different from before...

... hoping it could help of not missing someone.... (and oh! i have accidentally and not intentionally broken the 2 glasses which we bought together... somehow telling me... forget it...)


will post pix soon....

it is not easy to give up on something soooo much important to our life. To me, it's like the same as giving up my whole life. I dunno... maybe I was just having a so-disorganized-mind-rumbling-over-a-so-disorganized-thoughts lately. How I wish I could just press my "pause" button and let things sink on my mind before "playing" it again.

How can things be so different... so complicated that i often found myself staring at a corner and everything seems to be... "blank"

I have lot of things to do... lot of things to accomplish... but I can't find any reason for it...

All I wanted now is a clear mind... a clear answer to questions drooling on my mind....

... the thing is.... i know where to find the answer... I am just afraid to know it...


.....sigh!

spotted this nice mini at folded & hung yesterday and immediately tried it on. i know i should have it! but... whoah... the one that i tried was the smaller size, and of course it doesn't fit! hehehe! I was just hoping I could have something that has the S tag on it. *wink* Then I tried the Larger size.. and nyee!!! it's so big for me.. then I asked the sales attendant for the medium size... and she checked their stock... while waiting I saw that their tops was on 50% discount and the one that i liked most was on sale! if that skirt is available, i told myself, i should get that top too... then here comes the sales girl saying there's no more stock! Whoa!!!! whaatttt???? I wanted the skirt and I can't get it! So sad!!! I will come back this weekend to check wheter a new stock has arrived...

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why is it that everytime that i would pay my bills, i always get irritated with first, the long lines and second, the tellers. really, they screwed my day up.. seeing them giggling, making this "chismisan" while encoding stuffs to their computers and while the lines are getting long. And then seeing them do their work is like picturing a slow motion picture which you wanted to scream and say "can you make it a bit faster, please???" Hah! well, it took me an hour before I could settle everything...

worst... my electricuty bill just came in this morning... which means i have to get back there and fall in line again... if only it arrived yesterday.. e di isahan na lang sana... oh well...

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it was unusual that i go to bed early.. usually i sleep at around 2am or beyond that but not as early as 12am... but last night seems sooo different. I was feeling soo tired and all (was the stress of paying my bills a factor?) I wanted to rest.... I headed to my bed 8:30 in the evening and just when I realized, I fell asleep and woke up 12 midnight feeling some cringe on my stomach... I am hungry!!! I want something to eat.... I grabbed charlotte who also happened to be on the lookout for food, and in the midlle of midnight, we are walking across the block from our apartment... tadah! we are having our midnight snack at jollibee (thank God, there's a 24-hour fastfood nearby)....

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he's not going home again... "enjoy the night", he said in a message he sent... but how? maybe i was just used of being with him most of the time.... am i missing him???

Ugh!

Still this is what I am feeling right now...

right after a sad news I got yesterday... after an abrupt decision which leaves me with no choice...after he broke a statement casually... leaving me standing still... wondering what happened...

I never want him to leave... everything was so ok.. so fine... until that weekend that brought some tense on my nerves...when I suddenly felt there's something wrong...

I know it has nothing to do with me, or with him... there's nothing wrong with US, actually. Outside factors (which happened to be a "hands-up" for me) that pressures him to leave.

I know and I can feel theres more to his shallow reason. What he told me and the others is not merely the whole point of him leaving. He's just making things light when in fact I know there's something to talk about.. especially us.

I hate myself of not having the guts to ask the real problem... of just letting things happened this way.. but it is not too late though... I can still work things out.. or maybe I shoud say, WE WORK THINGS OUT... but what if we can't?

I am not stupid enough not to notice the change of mood that we are having. Or maybe I am just dealing with this so much that I am becoming so affected.

but then... i know myself... more than anybody else does...

i know... I can go over this....

It's the first day of the Yuletide month... I can already feel Christmas wherever I go.. from the extravagant christmas decorations at malls, on the streets, offices, every establishments, I can hear christmas carols all around the corner, people rushing off the stores for their christmas shopping, the mark-down sales on every malls, children's faces looking forward for that gift-giving moment... and oh... my old christmas list, which I had last year, having the list of my 17 inaanaks then, which now turned to 20, my families and friends whom now, Im having the terrible time thinking of what presents to give them.

So, I know you guys also have your own christmas list, right???? I dont want you to have a difficult time wondering what to give me or so.. hehehehe! so I am making my own "christmas wishlist" which you guys might want to consider on your shopping... *wink*

No! no! no! this is not to pressure you ao anything... just a simple wish list so you wouldn't mind asking what I want....

so the list goes...

> I am into the urge of collecting boxers now.... you might want to try herbench... i saw a lot there... :-)

> Home Accesories... anything to add kakikayan to my dear crib...

> True Star by Tommy Hilfiger or pwede na ring Be Clean by Bennetton

> Flipflops! Kahit hindi Havaianas, owkei lang!

> Get Happy Earrings! Oh! I love them.. soo much!

I still have lot of things on my mind now... but still have to organize my thoughts. But anyhow... at least I already gave you an idea... right???? hehehehe!!!!

Advance Happy Christmas Everyone!!!