BITS AND PIECES

Then, suddenly.. it felt cold...

My body chills as I wander through this dark road leading to nowhere... it must be somewhere I should know... but I didn't...I just walk and follow the line that leads to its end...

My heart pounded as I near the final step... and when I reached there... a flashing light crossed my face.. bewildered by its strong glaze...a different feeling suddenly enveloped my being....

A feeling of gladness with a bit of confusion... disturbed with a bit of contentment... confinement with a bit of hope...

As I paused for a moment...

I realized....

A bit of something is better than nothing at all....

As what I have told myself.... Baguio turned out to be AMAZING!!!!

Though it has been planned two weeks ago, I still haven't got the chance to do the preparation I need.. like organizing and packing up stuffs...

I know I should but I haven't got the enough time... see... that night when we're suppose to leave, I still don't have anything prepared... like we're suppose to leave by 10am and at 8pm I am still at INQ wrapping up stuffs for the EDSA 20...

So anyway... I got home around 9:am and Charlotte had no choice.. she'd waited for me until Im done packing up my things... I tell you I don't really know what I packed in.. kahit ano na lang madampot ko sa closet... yun na yun! Anyway I guess if ever, I can buy stuffs there naman...

So there, we were able to get the 12:30am bus departure... its an almost 6 hours travel. Arrived at Baguio around 6:30 am.. well... sad to say, we only have 2 hours left to prepare for a speech at Saint Louis University. This is actually the main reason why we are here at Baguio.. to do a career talk for the graduation Communication Arts students of SLU. Yep, me doing a career talk! See that??? They are serious... really!

OK. One fact about Baguio: IT IS COLD IN HERE! I should know that... and we all know that, right? But why is it that I failed to bring a jacket with me??? See, I told you i don't know what I packed in my bag. The moment I stepped out of the bus, I was freezing... my body chills... especially it's 6 am and the weather is so cold. Good we immediately catch a taxi and headed to Charlotte's friends house... the place where we stayed...

Ended up buying this stuffs....



This is my first time to do a talk... well you should see the faces of the students.. I remember my college days... I see myself on them.. how attentive they were listening to every stories I tell... asking out questions which I also asked when I was in their time...

I shared to them my career experiences.. how I'd managed to be where I am... my beginnings and tests... everything that they need to know...

Same with other speakers, I felt gladness in my heart knowing that i was able to share something to these generation following or steps...


After the talk.. its lakwatsa time... a bond between me and Charlotte... my housemate-former-officemate-friend. Well, we are supposed to be three in this trip... but the other one cannot make it on the last minute...

We went first to SM Baguio (yup... sa dami ng pwedeng puntahan.. SM pa!!) for lunch... then we stayed at Burnham for a walk. There's a lot of people that time so we decided to take a trip.. at PMA.. Philippine Military Academy... for a lookout of ELIGIBLE PMA'ers.. bwahahaha!!

It's their alumni homecoming so a lot of people are coming to visit their PMAers. We took a corner at the soccer field where we rested for 30 minutes or so... enjoying the sight of cadets on training for a game...

then we walk around.. seeing the military tanks used during the 1986 revolution.... and boy! cadets walking around like they do not see us.. well i guess it's a part of their training...

The next day, Sunday, was the busiest.. since it was our last day... time to buy souveniers and pasalubongs!!! It was cold still... and still the number of people visiting the city. I had the chance to pose with a native... a horseback ride... and more!

I was late afternoon when we prepared to go back down in the metro. I hate to leave the place... It's more serene and peaceful here... and not to mention the weather.. na kahit umaaraw e kelangan mong mag jacket dahil sa lamig.

Thanks to the great hospitality of charlotte's sister and dad in law... they made me feel so at home... I'll surely miss their sayote!! hehehehe!

Now i know why most people prefer to settle here... Low cost of living ... di mo na kelangan ng aircon or electric fan.. so tipid sa kuryente... kung vegetarian ka, buhay na buhay ka dito.... mura ang mga damit sa ukay! ... hmmm....

Hopefully we could come back on Penagbenga Festival... I would love it!!!

so this is how it feels to be sad when I am suppose to be excited...

few hours from now, im travelling up to Baguio with my housemate-slash-friend... planned 2 weeks ago... and now.. i am feeling less excited compared to how I was a week ago... maybe because we were suppose to have one "good friend" with us but on the last minute, he couldn't make it.

but hey! him, not coming with us doesn't really mean that this trip is incomplete... well in fact he's not included on the original plan, anyway... (so here comes my way of making things feels light.. huh?)

this trip would be my break out of all the stress I had the past weeks... and would mark my new vision, new world, new environment...

And I guess, it's just right that I spend time for myself now.. compensate myself for all the hardworks... just a time to chill and relax...

I told myself ... Baguio will be fun... and I will make the most out of it... and... this will happen...

...wondering if I could ever meet someone interesting there?????... *wink wink*

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while wrapping up things for this documentary (which I am doing now... hopefully we could be done anytime soon) I realized.. this would be my last glance of INQ TV office... and could possibly be the last day that I could be with my editors... awww.... i will surely miss them!

I'll miss the unlimited cellphone calls... the tapes library.... previewing raw materials (which familiarized me with most of the political figures)... I will sure miss collecting receipts for meal allowance reimbursements... and our editing bays....

The sleeping bags and pillows... na kahit basa na, konting tapat lang sa aircon.. ok na! Ang amoy ng natuyong laway sa mga unan... overnight works.. while playing uno card...

hay!!! everything has come to an end... and just so, I just wish that whatever would be the final decision, things with the television goal of PDI would go on the right way... I wish everybody the luck and may it be for the good of all....

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i'll sure post pics from this Baguio trip very soon!!!!

WAKE UP! SLEEPYHEAD!!

Yes, yes, yes.. I am sooooo sleepy.... I wanted close my eyes and sleep!!!! But I cant! I am here at the office.. but my mind seems to be nowhere... I am thinking about my schedule later and tommorrow... toxic ones... busy activities... of course! I can't wait to be in Baguio this weekend...

Since I am not doing anything so far, I decided to blog... But I have no idea of what topic to post.. just whatever comes to my mind....

I thought maybe I could do some clean-up on my desk.. organize the files that was turned over to me... decorate my cubicle .. whatever... but Im not on my mood to do so... sobrang tinatamad ako!

My eyes wants to fall...

Oh.. maybe I should download some mp3s for my player.. I have to do a reformatting of my creative coz it was infected with worm virus.. so, ok.. download... while doing this stuff....

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Our talent fee for the Edsa 20 documentary (oh, please watch this one on Monday night, 8:30pm at abc5) has not been released yet... F***! I need that money to add to my pocket this coming weekend! But more of my concern is for my editors... they really need that money so bad... I can't stand seeing them jobless and frustrated... This is my last project with them... and definitely, yes it would be the LAST. I guess I need to focus more on this present job that I have... aside of course with my other writing and editing sidelines...

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Two weeks of super toxic-no-time-for-my-self days are almost over.... comes Friday and I'll have more time to my self. Finally! I can stay at the mall nearby after work... have coffee with friends... and sleep early... no more 2-3 hours sleep a day... yipeee!!!!

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What would happen now that EDSA 20 is already over... would this mean that we will not see each other again?... anymore?.... I will surely miss the people behind this project... especially my editors... and most especially.... that someone who has been a seems-to-be-special-part of my life for quite a while... I will miss the kulitans, the ngaragans, the fights... and how different it is when we are at the office and.... at home.

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Going back to this weekend trip.... I hope this would be a one spectular moment of my life.... I wish....oh, how I wish.....

What's the real score of taking risk?

Nik: anu ba yung sitwasyon na gusto mong mangyari?

Ok.. so now everybody's talking about LOVE. Well, this is a tradition, I guess. That comes the month of February, all you can see are those red hearts flashing along the metro's highway.. radio stations playing love songs... events in line with love... etc..just, so to say.. in celebration of the famous Valentines Day..

Ooops! no! I am not against this tradition... don't get me wrong... just because I don't have someone to spend this day with means I am bitter and jealous of what other couples could have. In fact, I wish I have one... well, I know someone who still don't have a date on this day too and believe me, how I wish I could be with him!!! Oohhh... which is kinda 10-90 possibility... hahahaha!!!

Anyway... while typing this stuff... 2 days before this what they call the "heart's day"... I am thinking why am I doing this post? Maybe because everybody's doing it so why don't I? hahaha! I dont know... maybe because I am all alone in this room... no one to talk to... and as much as I want to go out... I can't... coz when I go out.. definitely I would spend so much and now, I need to save up!!!!

Valentine's Day falls to be on tuesday... so, aside from treating my besty (which, according to her is a must-do having my first pay cheque on this job... but that would be on a wednesday... ) I am spending my entire day at work!!! Exciting, right? Apparently, there's so much workloads to do and the thought of going out with someone seems to be the last priority. How I wish it could be the first... but I don't think so.

So, goodluck na lang, daei! :-p

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Looking forward on Baguio trip this coming Saturday....

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My proposed logo was approved! And I can't still believe I did have my first job well done on this new job. The president of BPI approved my design and it will now be used on all collaterals that I'll be doing for this project.

This is my first project, so to say. And for the past two weeks, I have been busy designing different logo studies... and in the end... the first design that I made was the one approved..

After the meeting at BPI, my boss and I headed to Market Market to check out the place where the grand launch of the event will be held. At the central plaza of Market Market... at the fountain area...

Suddenly I felt so excited... seeing myself being part of one big project...

A new world... a new environment... i missed this thing so much....

Haven't been in my right body system for the past two weeks. Sleep is nowhere to be found on my activities. How I wanted to have one... but when???? I don't know. 2-4 hours of sleep everyday makes me feel so weak. But at least knowing that it brought some weight loss kinda makes me feel ok.

Yup.. I have lost couple of weight for the past two weeks that i've been torturing myself on work and rakets. I wanted to gave up those sidelines, really. But I can't seem to quit because I have been involved with them already. Last night... or should I say, early this morning (around 2am) I was thinking of talking to my docu boss that I need some time for myself... that if I took off my hand to the responsibility of supervising the post prod, and look for someone to take my place, would it be fine for them? I don't mind about the talent fee, anymore. Coz it would cost me much more if my health suffers.

I know I have been dying to get workloads last month.. on paranoia that I couldn't get one. Then opportunities came all at once. I have been so blessed. I know that. But torturing myself is no good.

I can't find time to visit my OB. I need to have an asap checkup now... coz something's wrong with my system. But time contraints me from going to her clinic.. because I still have more pending works to do. And then I would think... If I could only stick to one regular work.. then everything would be allright. Then maybe I wouldnt get stressed and eventually a normal cycle would be back again on me.

i think I NEED A BREAK!!!
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Last night my thoughts came to assesing my targets for this year... What should I have and should accomplish... and then I found myself pondering into these three "simple" things...

> My own car. (maybe a second hand one is fine.. but really, i am targetting for a picanto or a vios.) But whatever! as long as I should have one by the end of this year.

> Travel... at this moment, I am dying for Venice. But hah! i don't know if I could.. I could get broke if I push through with it NOW! Hope I could get more "sidelines" to fill in my account. If not, maybe Hongkong or Singapore... its the cheapest, I think. Nik, if you're reading this.. I'm tagging you! Ipon ka na, bilis!!!

and lastly... should I say a this-time-a-good-almost-perfect-true-relationship? A more serious and not so complicated one. Hah! coz, come 2007... it should be my most awaited year!

If I could have all these three by or before December 31, wow! I know it all depens on me... but the question is.. can i make it? Sobrang patitipid ang kelangan kong gawin nito...

Kahit isa lang... please...

Hmm... if not.. kahit yung number 3 na lang???

Goodluck, daei!!!

My first embarassing moment of 2006.... happened earlier...

right in front of the back entrance of Strata 100...

and I would never... never... forget this day!

It was lunchbreak. I am hurrying up to catch the 1pm cut-off for my bills.. when on my way outside the building... I stepped on something....and my shoe heels broke... i've lost my balance... and the last thing I knew... I saw myself.. plakda ... para akong nanghuli ng kung ano sa daan... WHAAARRRR!!!

to top it all... ai think there are 3 people who saw me... plus the guard.. i dont know how many passersby...

eto ba ang binyag sakin ng ortigas????

my first day on my new job isn't so bad after all...

... it was great, actually...

... got along very well with my officemates

... first fact in the office: GIRLS SMOKE WHILE GUYS DON'T! Yep yep! Baliktad na nga mundo ngayon!....

... seems to me that i'll be having a wonderful atmosphere on my new home..

and by the way... im also glad im just a block away from my besty! so hopefully, we could spend more lunch together!... right, nik? *wink*

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and back here at INQ TV office, for my last project of EDSA 20, im a night owl. See, I have to spend my whole day with 1ISA and then my night with my dear INQ TV. EDSA 20 is our last project, so to speak. We've been working on this since the end of last year.. then we got stuck on January... and now.. back to post production.

Eto ang buhay "raket"... hanggat kaya, go lang ng go!

This will be just for 2 weeks... and after this, I hope, really hope that I could go back to my normal life...


I almost gave up my Asenso Pinoy... for two weeks, I couldn't attend to them anymore, even if I want to... but I will be back... and I promise that...
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I am so blessed and I thank God for all of this!!!

Another knot was tied... a dear friend got married...

And honestly, I still cannot believe I am his BRIDESMAID.

Haha!!! I never thought I would be in his own wedding. Well... we've been through a lot, really, that the thought of me, becoming part of his entourage was unlikely... But I was...

He was my crush during college.. freshman year, to be exact... and did a lot of quarrels before. Our barkada was then divided from them... and those memories just makes me laugh, now. It was almost 10 years...

Then 7 years after we last saw each other, we met again. This time as good friends. And the same time he talked to me about his girlfriend, who now is his wife. We still had misunderstandings and petty quarrels again, just part of being friends.

And lately, I have witnessed what he'd been through. What they have been through. A major change, from a major test. I was glad he never gave up on HIM.

I was happy for him on that day... that day when he was ready to exchange his vows to her.

The night before his wedding, we talked. A serious talk that I never had with him before. And I am greatful we had that long talk. For a while I thought, a different side of him was in front of me...

And that wedding day.. everything was perfect... God granted our prayers for sunshine... not even a single drop of rain came out.. the garden was beutiful... the ceremony was solemn. And on the middle of the ceremony, I saw the couple's eyes filled with love.. two sincere hearts bonding as one...

I am very happy for him... that finally... he's in it...

With their two little angels guiding them... I wish them all the blessings and guidance that they may live in accordance with HIS guidance...

Now here's some of the pics... as promised...















--> with Yam (his sister and my dear friend.. pwede ne ring sis!), and their cousins... janielle and joyce.

The Bridesmaid, Bestman, and Maid of Honor...

Jeoff, the bestman and his bestfriend

Getting ready with the Maid of Honor....

Earlier I had my contract signing with 1isa as their new Creative Officer. A new job... a new environment... a new place... a new home....

I am now starting to sink in the ortigas business district on my system... after almost 4 years of wandering along Makati. A new adjustment for me, I guess.

After they gave my appointment paper, which indicates a fair compensation as I could say, Jem introduced me to everyone and tag me along at Quali, their warehouse office and again, introduced me to the people there. Seeing Erika, the outgoing Creative Officer, she seems to enjoy her job. This was her last day actually.

I could sense a good environment out there. Nice people and a nice workstation! *wink*

But I still have my EDSA 20 project as my last project with INQ TV. We just had our meeting today and good thing, they allowed me to work during night. After my work with 1isa.

I hope I am not abusing myself so much... with Asenso Pinoy still on the side...

a matter of time management.. I hope I can make this...