When I die

Posted by daei at 5:04 PM

Recently, a few months to be more concise, I've encountered a consecutive lost of loved ones, family member and a friend.

Marlo, my "one true love" then, left us after a month and a half of confinement at the hospital. He died of Colon Cancer...

Followed by Mommy Flor's mom and then by our dear Omar's Dad. Both of them are my college classmate and friends...

And then comes Charlotte, my dear sister and friend at INQTV. She left after 3 days at the hospital. A so sudden death that shocked everyone. Which until now I can't still believe. I was still talking to her months ago and grieving about Marlo's death and I never know that soon she'll follow.

Yesterday, my cousin's (Donna) soon to be son left us. He's just 5 months old at my cousin's womb. And he never got the chance to know us... but he's our angel now.

And last night I was thinking.. where are they now. Yes I know and I believe that they are already in heaven with our Big Daddy. But then I wonder, do they still knew us? can they see us now? what exactly are they doing now.

Sad that most of the time, those who are dying do not have any chance to make some "bilin" at all. And then I thought, when my time comes, how would it be? Morbid as it may seems but I thought about posting this if in case my time comes and I can't have the chance to say this to anyone...

When I die..


... I dont want to see so much sadness in everyones faces. Sure, its normal to grieve, but I want to see everyone on a brighter side.. smiling and remembering my good memories.

... Since everyone would be talking about how I touched their lives, I wanted my friendster profile, this blog and my multiply site available for viewing on my wake. Especially this blog for this is where I write all the most meaningful events and people of my life... (jaymie knows the password for all my accounts.. *wink*)

... You might want my pictures flashing at my wake. It's all set with macky. You just need to open the screensaver because I used my slideshow pics as my screensaver.. just ask those who's on mac on how to do it.

... I dont want you to throw all my things and investments. Divide it to those who needs it.

... And Daddy, I want you to take care of my savings...

... If its true that a dead person can see everyone while still here on earth, I wanted to see everyone on my wake. Don't worry, i'll let you know if in case you still don't know that I'm dead.. hehehehe...

... I want you to pray for me. For my soul. For I am not as good as you think. I also have my bad sides, you know...hehehe.

... And most of all, I want everyone to be happy for me. For I am with my Big Daddy up there. I'll watch over you and be your angel.

Morbid ba? Nah... don't take this post as bad as it may seem. Just posting this if in case... and we should all be prepared... anytime...

Because only Him knows when...

 

2 Comments:

  1. Anne said...
    4:47 PM  
    daei... morbid kung morbid but being brave and being ready for anything that might happen is a sign that you have lived a good life. you are blessed & you're lucky dearie.
    daei said...
    5:30 PM  
    :-) yeah, i guess at this point of my life, I am really ready for it. *wink*

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