BITS AND PIECES

bleh!

my computer breaks down! the video card crashed... meaning all my pending works will remain to be pending, no internet access (unless of course I make singit to ms. cheng's computer in times that she's out.. wih the excuse of "can i check my mailbox?" hehehe!). Buti na lang she's out to Megamall kaya, ako muna dito sa pwesto nya and do this stuff... hehehe.

But really, im seriously looking forward in doing the next newsletter project but the moment I got in, i saw the service man doing someting on my opened cpu. So, wala akong choice... maghintay. Good that according to him, it can be fixed within the day.

I got in lunchtime because I was with my brother earlier to be his patient on his Optometrist Practical Board Exam. No contact lens for the whole morning until I got in here. I was there at the examination area and saw other board takers... some obviously are nervous, others taking things easily. And heres my brother... I was with him the whole time he's taking the 5 major practical test. And mind you, all the examiners are so strict.. at terror! grabe!

Im keeping my fingers crossed for my brother... sana he could make it this time... sana lucky charm ang ate nya... wehehee...

I actually slept at their place last night. Somewhere around Sampaloc area. God, I missed the area so much. 20 years of living there... particularly along Don Quijote-Dimasalang-Laon Laan area... where I spent my whole childhood days. And it was still the same. I missed every single memories I had with that place...so much...

... and back to this workplace... my superior just handed me my performance appraial. An evaluation sheet on my work performance. I was glad to see at the bottom of the last page where it states RECOMMENDATION: Confirm regularization to position of Creative Junior Officer effective August 1, 2006.

now, this is is a good news... *wink*

it was in the middle of the night when she got his message...

a sign...

she knew what she "should" do... right about then

still, she kept her pace... pretending to be unaffected...

at that very moment she knew the "COUNTDOWN" is over...

trying to defeat an unexplainable emotion enveloping her being...

her heart beating faster... her tears almost starts to fall...

and believing that instincts are most often true...


... so what would it be 29 days from now? would she still be excited looking forward on that day? She still don't know. As for now, it would just still be an ordinary day... no jitters, no thrills... just another day to live by...

Exactly 1 month from now....

I am hoping a major change would take place... in my life.

No more long wish list...
No more material attachments...
Just a simple wish... a simple prayer...

Im starting to count the days until I reach that moment when I could finally say "At last I am complete"

And Im hoping that day would be 30 days from now...

saturday at DAD's Megamall..

It's EON's birthday!!! It was a fun-filled children's party on a raining Saturday afternoon. Eon is Ms. Bong's (my super uber kulit officemate) youngest son and he just turned 1.

You know how I loooove kids! And this day, I enjoyed the moment together with my ofcmates' kids.. kasi ako walang kid... :-( sad...

3 moms and a baby
Minnie, Rose, Moi, and Euan
(Trina nakakainis ang gwapo ng anak mo!!!)

Ram
ang uber kulit na anak ni Minnie

Minnie
ang mommy ni Ram

Cyrene
youngest ni Cheng

yey!!

another project done...

the final issue of BPI TIMES Newletter...

~ front page~

Things are starting to change...

Im starting to make a move...

Thinking of giving up...

Would you let me?

Would you care enough?

Or should I let these things pass away?

didn't go to the gym last night...

because...

Tin, a friend that I met from my presscon coverages and music events days, met for dinner last night at Recipes, Greenbelt 3. The last time I saw her was i think, 2 or 3 years ago... during the Tunog Acoustic album launch at Eastwood.

After our ym conversation last tuesday, we thought it would be better if we could meet and catch up. Since we are both on a different environment now..far from what we had before... from meeting foreign and local music artist... interviewing them...covering their performances, concerts, album launch...those times when we have to save each other by sharing our lights, microphone, and sometimes doing an interview together...

Anyway, we met up at powerbooks and then headed to Recipes for dinner. It was my first time to eat there and I would say, the foods were great. Yum!yum!. I ordered bangus steak and she had the general's chicken. In fairness, masarap sya talaga and marami ang servings.

Tin trimmed down from the last time we saw each other. Effect na rin siguro ng Fitness First. Yep.. we coincidentally go to the same gym. Though she usually workout at Ayala...ako kasi sa Wynsum. We talked about everything... worklife, stressful loads, people, love life... basta almost everything.

Its good to see you again Tin, and I hope we could do this thing again... and thanks for all the chikas and kwento. Ill remember all of them. And remember what I've told you, ok.

You are just making your IDENTITY... so don't level yourself down.

And.. thanks for bringing me home... *wink*

im sleepy...

im sleepy...

2 cups of coffee didn't make me any better...

and im sensing a flu is coming over... with this colds now in my system...

im starting to get sick... again.

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tomrw, the result of tsh test will be out. they are going to run the test today then tita will get it for me since i have work and i can't afford to take another leave here in the office, especially now when deadlines are tight. anyway, it would still be on tuesday when i'll visit the endoctrinologist to give him the result.

things will get better.. i know.

had another t4 and tsh test last saturday... the endoctronist asked me to have another test to confirm whether the previous result is right..because, according to her medyo confusing daw. Ok fine.. so there I was, without any choices, receiving another injection.. hahaha! But in fairness, magaan ang kamay ng nurse this time... no pain whatsover..

The result will be release on Friday. Then by tuesday, i'll be back to the endo for further observation and hopefully by then I would know whether I have to undergo an operation.

The fear I had before now starts to disappear...

I had already set my mind on whatever possible things that may come....

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Sunday...

its my Lolo's 40th day death anniversary...

Food galore once again!

No gym... no diet for this day

Im feeling bloated once again

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Today, Monday...

I have a new phone...

Thanks to you for this advance birthday gift!

mmmmwwwaaahhh!!!!

How I loved moments like these...

Mornings when I wake up cuddled in my blanket and surrounded with my pillows...
with heavy rains pouring outside. Hearing its raindrops.. makes me want to shiver...
then pulling myself back... closing my eyes for a minute more...

How I love the coldness, the touch of the wind on my skin, the breeze that I felt the moment I walk on the street... and the way the raindrops get through me...

It reminds me of something...

Something that I would definitely want to have... over and over again...

Got this e-mail attachment from Erika...

Ayan at may tumalo na sa version ni Netchie... (1ISA peeps, mas malakas tama nito)

An essay written by a Call Center applicant...

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

I finally have my blood tests results...

FT4 NORMAL VALUE ---> 0.8 - 2.0 ng/dl

my FT4 ---> 1.0
meaning, im in a NORMAL range

TSH NORMAL VALUE ---> 0.39 - 6.16 uIU/ml

my TSH ---> 0.1
meaning, nasa low level ako...
now, this I have to know what it means...

Btw, thanks Anne and Erika for the referrals of endo and surgeons... I might consult them one of these days...I just have to confirm kung ano na next step after these results...

Its a welcome back party for my everdearest cousin Kuya Ernie. Spend Saturday night at BAGABERDE along Roxas Boulevard (beside Marina and Pier 1).

This celebration was supposed to be the week before but since everyone is busy, we thought of pushing it Sunday night since I have 4 tickets to Zirkoh comedy bar at Greenhills. But on the last minute, he and Kuya Olan texted me "cousin tonight na lang tayo lumabas" OK. I was on the gym when I got the message and tadah! fine... they are coming to our house that night.

Kuya Ernie and Ate Ova, straight from San Pedro Laguna arrived at around 11pm sa house. We really don't know where to go that night. Until Tito Emil suggested to go to Pier 1. Pero, as expected, Saturday night, full packed. When we arrived at Pier 1, waiting kami.. in line from others who are waiting too (na mukang 48 years na silang naghihintay). So we decided to make it at BAGABERDE.

Buti na lang, medyo ok ang performers that night. U-turn and Mojofly. We enjoyed the get-together naman... 4 buckets of beer and one to sawang pulutan!! heheheee!!!

~kuya ernie & ate ova~

~eto ang original berks na magpipinsan!~

~ysa and tito emil~

Thanks cousin for the super enjoy and wonderful gimik!!! :D

now here's the result of my thyroid ultrasound...





positive... for a solid mass...

still have to wait for the t4 FTH result...

waaahhhh!!!!

Was browsing along my friend Erika's blog and found this interesting link... and thought of trying it out..

Checking out if my name really fits my character...

daisy

• Although the name Daisy creates the urge to be creative and original, we emphasize that it limits your versatility and scope, tuning you to technical details.
  
• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses and accidents to the head, and the elimination system.
• Your first name of Daisy has made you a hard worker with a meticulous sense of detail.
  
• You have a great deal of patience and independence, and you can be relied upon to complete your undertakings.
  
• You could be inventive along scientific or practical lines.
  
• You are stable, trustworthy, homeloving, and logical in practical matters, but rather unresponsive to suggestions from others.
  
• You resist change.

Will be having my thyroid ultrasound and FTH THS test tomrw (which means im going to call on leave at work.. or better yet.. file an advance leave notice).

Thanks to Cleng... I really owe you ONE BIG TIME for this.

Im hoping and praying everything would be fine... that this is just "nothing"...

still im afraid...

God help me...

Just had our APE (annual physical exam) this morning at Grepalife Medical Clinic in Makati. Bianca, Minnie and I met at McDonalds Buendia so we could have the check-up together. I was actually on my normal self and I am really feeling okay earlier. Not until I was checked by the IM (Internal Medicine) Doctor...

She checked my pulse rate, my heart rate, my breast, and finally, she checked my thryroid glands. Found out I have this thyroid nodule. What the hell is thyroid nodule??? She told me its like a mass formed along my thyroid gland which should be treated immediately. This gland, according to her controls most of the hormonal system of the body. Well ok, I failed to comprehend with most of the things she said for it was so complicated... sort of medical terms. But one thing i needed to do is for sure: get a thryroid ultrasound and an FTH TSH test, a blood test or something. And since I, or my family has a cancer history, I really have to attend on this thing ASAP!

But I am afraid... as in AFRAID.. first of the injection (yep! I am! even on the CBC test earlier.. the nurse had a hard time to inject the needle on me) and secondly.. o whatever the result may be... I am afraid I might end up suffering the same thing my mom and tita suffered...

Then thoughts came in.. I still have lots of things on my mind that I wanted to do...

Cleng, my nurse besty told me I really have to undergo the ultrasound ASAP. The earlier, the better daw. She stold me there's nothing to worry about... Then I told her.. "mamamatay na ba ako?" And she said, "papatayin kita pag namatay ka!"

But seiously, takot talaga ako... i know I shouldn't be but there's something that's holding me back....

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Bausch and Lomb is conducting this study for their new brand of contact lens and fortunately, I was one of the subjects...

As part of the study, they are giving me two pairs of contact lenses which I am going to wear for two weeks each. And then I would evaluate which among the pair is more comfortable and suitable for me. I started the study last Saturday...

I was at Asian Eye Institute. They gave me eye refraction and checkup. Then gave me the first pair of lenses (with Renu Solution and Rewetting Drops) which I am going to wear for the next two weeks. They also gave me this diary which I have to fill up every end of the day during the study period.

Another good thing is that since the study is being paid by Bausch and Lomb, I do also receive a pay as part of it. Don't ask how much but I guess it's worth the participation. Not to mention the 3 month supply of contact lens (whatever its is that is suitable for me) and accesories... and yeah.. the free mothly eye check-up...

Not bad after all....

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But, still thinking about my thyroid gland....

I am really AFRAID....

guess where i am?

yadah!

im trying out fitness branch here in RSC.. somewhere here along Ayala Ave...

and im doing these for a change...

hmmm.. yeah to get the feeling of how would it be outside wynsum

its great to have an internet access here.. really... (sa wynsum kase wala)

ok.. since i started comparing out... sasagad sagarin ko na...

First, iba ang crowd dito.. i dunno.. maybe because its a weekend and there's not much people here... (sad wala akong naspot na interesting creaure) hahahaha!

Sa locker room mas ok dito.. there's more shower cubicle and mas comfy ang arrangement ng lockers...

Pero mas maluwag ang workout area at Wynsum... I feel more at ease using the equipments there.. and i guess there's more equipment in here..

Oh.. here's one great thing here: the CINEFIT... a kinda cinema room where you got to watch a movie on big screen (earlier it was The First Daughter) while working out.. specially my favorite stepper is included inside...

Of course, this internet access is a plus... sana may ganito rin sa Wynsym.. (I wonder if I could suggest it to the management)

Given fact: mas malapit for me during weekeneds... well actually both naman... coz wynsum is just beside the ofc.

And ang pinaka nafeel kong difference? haha! walang mga instructors na nangiintriga! I feel more private here... doon kase almost every FIs are looking at me na as if im having the "great time of my life".. at least dito wala akong issue (kung meron man akong "issue" duon)

... and yeah... dito walang... Marlo. (pero ayan.. I was just about to write about him not being here and he just called... asking how is it working out here... haaayyy lifeee!!!). Kaya nga nagtry ako dito para wala sya e... jusme!!!! Pero sige na nga.. I did miss him... in a way...

Will have another workout tomrw... just dont know yet where... but wherever, I hope things would get in fine...

time for a new look...

I dont know.. I just thought of giving this stuff a new and different element this time...

Well.. im happy though.... still have lot of stuffs to update... still have lot of links to made... and more changes to come...

any comments and suggestions are welcome..

especially from you two girls, ANNE and BESTY NIK...

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OK.. so ano mararamdaman mo pag alam mong may mid-year bonus ka? Syempre excited ka di ba? The list goes on for stuffs you really wanted that finally, may chance kang makuha...and then everyone was expeceting.. plans of out-of-town travel, paying debts, extra cash, and more on the list...

pero on the day ur expecting it, suddenly you'll learn na wala ka palang ineexpect... that everything was just a hear-say... and then makikita mo lahat ng kasama mo sa ofc, mukang gumuho ang lahat ng pangarap... nakakadisappoint di ba?

though of course, it's just a bonus... it still depends on the management... kaso nga lang you can't help but feel sad and down lalo na super excited ka...

i was hoping I could save someone pa naman... I was hoping I could be someone else's savior.. pero mukang ako rin yata kelangan ko ng savior ngayon...

windang ako ngayon.. so i dont know what will happen later.... bahala na si Batman!