CAN'T HELP MYSELF...

Posted by daei at 8:25 AM

I can't believe I am feeling this way... I dont really see myself passing to this level of emotion... This is not the way it used to be...

I know it will come to this point but I didn't see myself drowned to this thing so deep that I can't help myself from cutting it off. It is not fair... to both sides..

You know the feeling of missing someone so much that all you ever wanted is to see or talk to that person even for a single second? A single second is enough for you to take away all those depression and longingness... but the fact is, that person doesn't knew that you're missing him/her... or maybe he/she does...

You tried to get in touch but it seems forever that you could get a response... Its a waiting game... and it's hard... it's getting harder every single day...and you can't do anything...

You found yourself stuck in a stage where you are just waiting for the next thing to happen...no idea of what's next...

Worst is.. you knew that "that person" too is in the same stage of depression as you are. You knew that at this moment, that person needs someone to listen and be there for him/her... which actually is your role to that person's life... and now.. as much as you want.. you can't do anything...

now tell me... if i can't help myself... then, who?



 

2 Comments:

  1. Anne said...
    6:24 PM  
    daei, in some ways i can relate to the limbo you're in, it sucks but we're left with no choice. it's like we're meantime girls - all the time. pero try to cheer up dearie, this shall pass. :)
    daei said...
    9:24 AM  
    hi anne! well, im trying to cheer up.. it's not the end of the world anyway.. but things get thougher everyday...keeping myself busy is the main key.. pero sometimes, pag wala na kong ginagawa.. depression attacks again!!! waaaahhh!!!!

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