BITS AND PIECES

here i come!!!

excited!!!!

though it would be mostly work stuffs, im sure we (minnie, me and red) would find time to explore the place and enjoy!!!

will post updates soon!!!

i am now spending the last 30 days of being a 26-year-old...

soon i'll be 27... getting older...

not so sure if im happy or not-so-excited...


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will be in Davao for the next couple of days...

i hope i'll have fun....

today is my dearest Lolo's birthday...

he's supposed to be 88 now...

and it has been a year since he left us...

i miss you lolo justo!!!

HAPPY 88th BIRTHDAY!!!

im sure you'll gonna hve a big celebration there with mommy, tita tina and lola! *wink*

...just when i thought everything was perfect. this is for you...


Silence and quiet
Again in my life
Far from these moments
I wish I was
Passion and truth
We were about
Before these shadows
Stole the beat of our hearts

After all we have been through
I can only look at you
Through the eyes you lied to
I'm givin' up, givin' up
I'm givin' up on you
After all if there is no way out
If you cannot stand beside me
If there isn't love
There is only pride
I'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fight

Undo this leash
You say I tied
When only our fears are to
blame this time
And what am I to you
Just spit it out
I'm not afraid of the words that you hide

Where do we go
Where did it all crash
When did it start to fall apart
Silence and quiet
Passion, the truth
Shadows, only shadows

i want to have a new outlook...

for a change...

naka dress ako ngayon!

though i do wear girly stuffs but not that often.. usually i come to work in jeans, simple tops, slippers, flats...

i just wanted a change...

kahit ngayon lang.

no. wala akong date. wala akong lakad.. or any special thing today...

i just wanted to feel better.

thanks ulit jae for getting this dress for me...

so here i am, in my workstation... ka ym ko si yhannee.. si wisa... si joebel....

i told them "nakadress ako ngayon!"

lahat sila nagtanong "ano meron?" pero si yhannee, iba!

the moment i told her na naka dress ako.. suddenly she signed out...

after around 15 minutes, she suddenly appeas here at the ofc. sabi nya "di ko palalampasin ang moment na to na makita kang naka dress!"

classic ka yans! She also brought me the sweet chili sauce na matagal nang dapat nabigay samin (hmf! sayang naubos na yung heinz soup) and the cd from kuya lawrence...

thanks thanks yans!

i was thinking...

maybe i should start doing this from now on...

last night... my curiosity has been answered ( a bit) though not that totally clear. biglaan.

i was there. i saw what i have wanted to see for the past couple of weeks. i may not found the exact thing that i was looking for but still, in a way, it gave me an idea on how it was.

i'm a little light right now... one heavy baggage dropped...

thanks wisa!

UpperBox.

It was my first time. And it feels good.

Thanks abi.

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Back to the gym after almost three weeks. I missed my second home. Though I noticed there are more "new faces" than the old familiar faces i knew then who are there to assist the members. I think this is a good thing anyway... kasi hindi na rin nila ako kilala. No issues whatsoever..

I also found myself doing group exercises which I barely do before. Ngayon kasi wala na akong destruction... Ngayon feel ko na ang pagsayaw sa loob ng GX and have the time of my life. Sabi ko nga.. from now on.. i'll be more into GX classes na...

a new gym routine.. a change...

para less interaction na rin with those "familiar faces".

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last full show at gateway mall with kit and jae.

we were supposed to watch it at greenbelt but all slots are taken up to the last full show. so kit did the honor of calling up gateway cinema and reserving a seat for us. Good Job tigger!!

a good movie. but not as amazing as the goblet of fire...

pero one lesson learned: wag manood ng movie ng gutom! kahit gano pa kayo ka excited...













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nik, anne!!! san na pasalubong ko???

is what i am feeling today...

throw-up thrice...

grumbling stomach...

this is not good.

after almost three weeks..

im going back to the gym!!!!

simply because... naguumpisa na naman akong lumaki!!! and im not liking it!

thanks to... jaymie for the motivation and support!!! promise a-attend na ko ng combat class mo!

excited!

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i realized...

i just have to take things as it is. Hoping for the best but with less (or probably no) expectations. I better rely on actions instead on words of promises.

there may be things which i can't understand. questions which makes me struggle for answers. but at the end of the day, i will find myself having nothing... blank.

there could be reasons why things happen.

and in my case right now, i don't know that reason...

i'll just let it be...

...you happen to drop by here, (because i know for the longest time you haven't got the time to go online and earlier I was surprised to know that you were able to do so since i saw that you checked my friendster profile) i just wanted you to know this:

whatever it is that's been happening to us... to our "situation" to be specific.... i want you to know that i don't want it to be like this. If we need to settle things, or if need to end this... i hope that we can face the problem together.

you know where i am coming. and i am fully aware of where you are coming too. you know my concerns...

clearly, you are not yet ready to fix things up.

i am now disregarding all those things that you told me before... that things will be better, that we will be good, that we are going farther...

because actions speaks louder than words.

anyway... as much as i wanted to talk to you, the more you step back.. away from all of these.. leaving me hanging...

you said, we'll talk next week... but then, i'm letting go of the expectation...we may never see each other again...

i wanted you to see that up to the last moment, i reached out to you.

i need to throw away all the heavy baggages you have caused me...

till then...

to hate you...

to really hate you...

send you hate messages...

slap you...

up to the very last moment, I took the pride off my system for the sake of clearing things out. I reached out. Did my very best.

even the smallest portion of self-worth that i have been trying to save for myself, i risked.

and look what i got?

you never got the balls to face the problem...

duwag ka pa rin.

i never thought things will end this way...

i am hurt.

i am so hurt.

disappointed.

and now you're giving up just like that?

i am not blaming you for that matter... but after I have shown and given you the best that I could, you'll just turn your back and walk away....

that easy?

4:00 pm... i am on my office workstation when minnie (who happened to be outside the office for a mtng) called up and and asked me to follow her at Holiday Inn Galeria for a Photoshoot with Suriya Spa.

I then grab my camera and headed to the location and I was there after around 10 minutes or so. I did the shoot. It only took us about 15 minutes since it was only a product shot anyway.

After the shoot we thought of having our "merienda" at Kenny Rogers

and...

dun namin tinuloy ang pictorial! wehehehe!

trina with her new hairdo

i just looove this shot!

and this one too!

pang wallpaper to minnie!

pa-cute lang...

mabuti na lang may timer yung camera.. haha!

miss you.

i am out for work early today...

im going to see my dad.

i will visit him. talk to him.

it's him that could ease all these pains and worries away.

see you later daddy!

it was...

and it seems forever.

without my friends, i wouldn't know what could've happened to me.

i wish i could breathe...

away from everything.