routine. a part of our everyday activities. even if we are both busy with workloads, as soon as the clock strikes at 4pm (sometimes 4:30), we would take a break and meet downstairs.. for a snack. for a quality time.
it has been like this for a year and a half. though there are some days that we can't really avoid not to meet because of toxic workloads here at the ofc and him having a complicated schedule with his clients. it is just during this time that we could talk and spend quality time together.
aside of course after work hours when we make it as much as possible to be together going home.
this routine sometimes can eat up to an hour or more... ng hindi namin namamalayan... buti na lang di kami nasisita ng sari-sarili naming ofc.
happy na rin.. kasi kahit papano, we can still have time na sa amin lang. with the situation now, mahirap makakuha ng time...madaming complications... madaming issues...
unanswered questions... undefined relationship.
trust and understanding... eto na lang ang panlaban e.
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last night..
once and for all, you assured me that everything will be alright... that there's nothing to worry about... again i trusted you...
you told me we will never part ways even if you have to leave... that things are about to get better for us.... then again i believe you...
you also told me there's nothing to get jealous about when i told you that i am.
i will let go of this jealousy... as much as possible i will try not to be affected with it...
i am holding up to your words...
and that's the only thing that keeps me on holding on right now
one. i want to stop the clock. freeze. i wish i could just sit here without the time moving its hand. cherish the moments. making the most out of the time remaining.
only 2 weeks left... and everything will change.
two. i want to see right about now what would happen next. the big change (if i would consider it BIG). would this thing benefit the both of us? or would it be just him? what will be in store for us? will things be the same? or would it be the end of everything?
confusions... questions.
i think i have been thinking too much lately that sometimes, i see myself into a point when i didin't even know how to react or respond to things that have been happening.
one of my friends told me not to think about it too much. i just have to do what I want to do.. go to places where I want to go... live as if nothings gonna happen. but its hard. definitely.
trust is becoming an issue lately. honesty. commitment.
another friend told me some things are better left unsaid. for some reasons. for us not to get hurt. but sometimes not saying something hurts more. it is not easy trying to figure out what the real situation is... especially if your being drawn into it.
an abrupt change. a major decision. a big risk.
i am afraid... and excited at the same time...
all i want is to make things clear once and for all... before it even ends.
to those people who knew me ... those who are aware on this part of my life's story... thank you very much for the understanding and patience...
and.. it was also mommy's 5th year death anniversary yesterday... missing her so much.
but I have to work.
It was our new product (BIG BOSS ENERGY DRINK) initial launch. We conducted a taste test to the LTFRB peeps during their sportsfest activity at UP Diliman.
Siempre.. kami ni Minnie ang "taste test gurls" (parang ang pangit pakinggan...). OO raket ito!!! hehehe!
call time: 6am at McDonald Quezon Ave...
Bumy (our manager! wahahaha!) picked us up and headed to their house for breakfast. After breakfast we headed to UP Sunken Garden...
At one point... I am proud of myself. Designing all the artworks for this product was one of the toxic works I've ever done. Pero nakakagaan ng feeling makita yung output...
(from packaging design, poster, tarps, shirt, and other collaterals... it feels good to see my works out there)
(pagkatapos naming mag set-up)
Happy.. glad... excited... afraid.
Happy. Because I know someone's agony will soon end. Agony caused by work, affecting almost all aspects of his life. He finally decided to put an end into it. After all the hardwork that he has given to his job, he now did the biggest critical decision of leaving it. A risk. But, on the other hand, it would make his life lighter... A new opportunity is about to come and he's willing to grab it. An opportunity that could completely change his life.
Glad. Seeing him freeing himself from stress and pressures. Glad knowing that he is brave enough to stand up for his decision. Glad hoping that soon.. things will get better... and everything will soon be on the right place..
Excited. Coz I don't know what will happen next.
Afraid. From the possibility of being left alone... again. Afraid that things will never be the same again. afraid that a journey is about to end.. totally.
Ironic... I am the one pushing him to go.. and yet.. I don't wanna be left alone...
In any case, I would leave everything to HIM. Let HIM do things... in HIS own way.
I will just sit and wait... prapare for the worst... and cherish the moments left for us...
its to STAND UP no matter how painful the cuts;
to FIGHT for what I believe in;
and..
to WAIT. Because even if I think now is the right time to give extra effort, waiting is even more worth it...
especially if I love that person so much...."
ok.. its not jaymee...
its JAYMIE.
yan tama na spelling ha....
*grin*
nakakatuwa.. first time ko naexperience na malibre sakay sa mrt.
updates updates... kinukulit na rin ako ni nik at ni anne...
ano nga ba bago...
monday ngayon.. andito ako sa office.. overtime... kelangan e. I need to finish the first draft of our company brochure for presentation tomrw... nakakainis lang.. di ko maperfect yung printing... kung hindi bitin, putol naman or sobra naman.. waah!!!!
lately, iv'e been out of circulation... lalo na sa BIG 4.. i missed them so much. I have to attend kasi on something that really needs my attention... i don't want to elaborate it muna for now.. lalo na mag fa-father's day pa naman...
I miss my dad. I terribly misses him... so much...
5th year death anniversary of mommy on Sunday... i wanted to visit her... i hope i can.. i still have no plans yet because i still have to check on daddy... but definitely i would visit her....
Kit and Jaymee.. two of my angels... who have been with me lately. It's a blessing to have them around. They've showed me a different meaning of LIFE.
Anne and Nik.. and to others who have been checking my blog regularly.. I promise to post more detailed stuffs soon... may inaayos lang po ako..
