I know it will come to this point but I didn't see myself drowned to this thing so deep that I can't help myself from cutting it off. It is not fair... to both sides..
You know the feeling of missing someone so much that all you ever wanted is to see or talk to that person even for a single second? A single second is enough for you to take away all those depression and longingness... but the fact is, that person doesn't knew that you're missing him/her... or maybe he/she does...
You tried to get in touch but it seems forever that you could get a response... Its a waiting game... and it's hard... it's getting harder every single day...and you can't do anything...
You found yourself stuck in a stage where you are just waiting for the next thing to happen...no idea of what's next...
Worst is.. you knew that "that person" too is in the same stage of depression as you are. You knew that at this moment, that person needs someone to listen and be there for him/her... which actually is your role to that person's life... and now.. as much as you want.. you can't do anything...
now tell me... if i can't help myself... then, who?
I was visiting some of my friend's blogs when I spotted this on Joan's site.. seeing that she tagged me at the end.. kaya.. sige na nga...
TEN men you find sexy
- Tom Welling (a.k.a. Clark Kent)
- Brad Pitt
- Colin Farrel
- Tom Hanks
- Joshua Jackson
- Michael Rosenbaum (a.k.a Lex Luther)
- Orlando Bloom
- Brendan Fraser
- Aga Mulach
- Sam Milby (hahahahaha)
NINE people you would invite to a special party
- "My Angel" (this one could complete the special party anyway...)
- MYMP... para masaya...
- My dad
- Bestfriends (Cleng, Nik, and Van)
- Extended barkada
- .....
- .....
- .....
- .....
EIGHT sure fire ways to get your attention (positive and negative)
- eye contact
- nice and senseful talk
- anything lavander, lilac & purple
- a good music
- a vacation invite
- anything about "my angel"
- foods!
- stress breaks
SEVEN pet peeves
- know it all in-duh-viduals ( I second the motion!)
- liars
- “so-called friends”
- jerks & a-hole guys
- cheaters
- parasites
- stubborness
SIX women you look up to
- MOMMY
- Clengski
- Nik and Van
- Lea Salonga (yeah.. i do..)
- Tita Cora (my tita ganda!)
- Mama Mary
FIVE random things about you
- I hate dirt!!! (especially at home)
- addicted to purple... lavander... or anything in that shade
- I love music and movies.. and my bestfriends
- Shopaholic (that's my theraphy)
- I am so in love with "my angel"
FOUR most romantic songs (music)
- Util I get over you (Christina Milan)
- Fall For You (Shanice)
- All My Life
- The First Time I Loved Forever
THREE places you want to take a vacation in
- France
- Venice
- New York
TWO turn ons
- simple pero may dating
- witty & smart
ONE unforgettable moment
- yet to come.. and im hoping its soon...
tag 5 people...
Nik
Annej
Les
Lot
Rhein
EDSA 20: ISANG LARAWAN
I believe there's nothing wrong with hoping for what I really want... making my best effort to achieve something and putting my best foot forward to reach my goal. But sometimes, I am hindered by factors I can't somehow understand. People, incidents, environment.. all of these affects my decisions. It may not be directly but in some ways it contributes to whatever it is that I do.
I am the kind of person who's not afraid of trying out new things... exploring new adventures... going to places I have never been before... doing things for the first time... satisfying my curiosity..
But some people often misunderstood me...
Which, I guess, is their problem, not mine. I believe I cannot please everybody... and I cannot succomb to their own norms and beliefs...
I have my own personality and nobody knows me better than myself.
I wonder, why does some people have this habit of judging a person even without even knowing the real score of a situation. Why is it that some people loves to make chismis of other people's personal stuffs? And why is it that they always tend to see the dark side of you inspite of all the good things you've shown them? Why is it that when im completely happy, something would definitely come up and ruin the moment?
Ahh... these always happens... everytime...
And it really makes things so imperfect.
My first major event.. my first project... my test...
It was a sucess... and I am so proud of myself....
The tap on my shoulder... the recognition... and the appreciation... more than enough to cover up all those stress...
It was a teamwork...the key to it's sucess... and everybody deserves the credit....
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Even if I have to wake up as early as 4am to be present on the set-up... Even if I felt nervous when I was about to control the presentation on the L.E.D.... even when I know that everybody has a great expectation on me... and it pressures me out...and even if I know that a single mistake could ruin evrything....
still.. everything turned out to be more than what we expected....
and the moment the program ends... and when my boss approaced me and said " Very good work, Congratulations", I felt relieved...
Even until when I got home.. I received messages of congratulations from my superiors...
This is one of a kind....
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Now, here's some of the pics...
my 1ISA Family
-prettier in pink!!!-
-with the VOLVO guys-
with the technical guys.... that's the advantage of leading the creatives... being the only rose amongst the thorns!!! hahahaha!
.... again, CONGRATULATIONS TO EVRYBODY!!!
I am still amazed that finally, two of my long lost friends have finally found me!! Thanks to Friendster :-)
I seldom open my friendster account... I just usually do when I do have my free time.. coz most of the time, instead of going to friendster... im here busy doing my "blog". I was surprised to see on my mailbox something from Friendster that there's a "New Friendster Message from Mabe" and "A New Friend request from Mabe"...
Hey! She was my former officemate on my ever first job on advertising! We've been working together for almost 8 months and then she left for the States. Then I suddenly opened my account and saw her. Gee! You should see her now! A very different Mabe from whom we knew during Ad Sustain days. And mind you... she seems so happy with her married life.. not to mention her good-looking husband! *wink*
Then I send her a message and she replied the next day. I was glad to hear from her, really! And not only that... it was a surprise for me to know that she and Vivian (our c0-officemate too) still had communications!
Speaking of Vivian, Im happy to know that she's happy with her life in Taiwan. Oh... they are both outside this country. And it seems that they are staying to where they are for good. Though I still haven't got the chance to exchange message with her. I remember those days when I have to make kulit to her especially when its payday time!!!! hahahaha!
Now, I wonder... where is Sam? He's the only thorn amongst the roses!
I hope we could have a mini-reunion soon!!!
