BITS AND PIECES

Have you guys heard of this place somewhere in Binondo called ESTERO? Yup, yup! Last night we (me and some officemates..) thought of trying out the place... and beleive me... its definitely great!!!

We arrived there with our stomach drooling for something to digest... yung tipong nagkakagulo na yung mga intestines mo sa tiyan.. hehehee...One of us reccomended that place, so here we are trying it out..

and oh!!! no doubt.. the food is so soo fantstic! Para ngang may birthday and fiesta sa dami ng inorder namin... and so affordale too!

we had squid with oyster sauce, fried fish fillet, sizzling shrimp, chopsuey, and brocolli with oyster sauce. sobrang sarap! believe me!

now... you guys wanna try that place....

*wink*

last night was one of the worst night ever..

i am still having some kind of shock whenever i go back to the thoughts of what happened...

charlotte and i just had our dinner at waltermart.. then we had some coffee to finish up.. we stayed at starbucks for some chat since it was still early to go home...

then we took a walk heading to where we are suppose to take a ride home. Well, it was just a block across the mall... we are used in doing that walk everytime we take a stop at waltermart...last night was just different.. it was the worst, actually.. it was when i told her and myself... i would never ever walk along that area again...

while crossing the street, a man (whose appearance seems like a squatter -nearby-with-drugs-all-over-his-system) apparently grabbed my arm forcing to snatch my bracelet.. a silver chain which i treasured so much. that moment we freaked out.. really that maybe our voices can be heard right across the next block... just then,all motorist stopped in front uf us.. making this man tremble more, still haven't been able to get my bracelet in my arm... i felt pain while he's scratching his hand on my arm trying to unlock the bracelet.

I got really afraid... so much that deep inside my heart beats so fast... i thought what if this man just took a stab on me? what if he has his companions somewhere..i knew i should have my presence of mind... so what i did was... i yell at him.. saying.. "o teka lang.. eto.. kunin mo ng maayos... sayo na!" then he looked at me.. with disbelief.. maybe shocked why am i giving what he wants... he then unlocked the bracelet and run.. so fast he that he almost got hit by a truck.

Oh.. i thought, that bracelet cost something like 200 bucks and its not that expensive... so it would be not that much of a hurt... at least i am not hurt physically or that he didn't grab my bag.. which if it happened, I would really fight with him...

That incident just gave me another trauma... i wouldnt ever ever walk along that area again!!!

And oh.. my hand still has scratches which really is painfull.. I wasnt able to sleep because of the pain...

Before I sleep, i prayed.. thanking Him for keeping me alive... na walang masyadong masamang nangyari sakin... still have some thoughts running in my head... why are there such kind of people...why do they have to do that kind of thing?

.....

yes.. and as it is...

the answers are laid in front of me... without any second thoughts i knew i should forget it...

... i should be happy though... then in time... everything would be fine...

meanwhile...

gotta go get some coffee...

yesterday i was again attacked by my sickness --- SHOPPING! i told you it is my therapy...

i am really really bored at home so i thought of going to the office to do some digitizing work for our docu. well, i went first to my friend's office somewhere in ortigas to pick up something and from there i headed straight to INQ TV instead of going home. I arrived lunchtime.. which of course, together with some officemates, we took our lunch...

i know i have to digitize videos and organize other materials for our docu, which so happened i wasn't able to do because our dear dsr player just failed to work again... for the 2nd time... (the first time it took 48 years before it was fixed.. i wonder how long would it take now...) i should've use the camera but the avp team is using it... so, anyhow... i can't do anything... meaning... i've nothing to do TODAY!...

I wonder where to go.. would i stay here at the office for some net stuffs or would i go somewhere more enjoyable??? hmmm...

i decided to go to the mall... yes.. to the mall...

one thing about me, i am easily tagged not by clothes or anything... but with home accesories...

i was just walking along that department and the last thing i know, i have just bought new pairs of carpet, a dish organizer and 4 pcs pf wall frames.. where i intend to place our pictorial photos...

i felt relieved and a tinge of gladness got to me as soon as i started to decorate my little crib. It looks more "homey" now, i guess... just need to add more touches on it so it would look a bit different from before...

... hoping it could help of not missing someone.... (and oh! i have accidentally and not intentionally broken the 2 glasses which we bought together... somehow telling me... forget it...)


will post pix soon....

it is not easy to give up on something soooo much important to our life. To me, it's like the same as giving up my whole life. I dunno... maybe I was just having a so-disorganized-mind-rumbling-over-a-so-disorganized-thoughts lately. How I wish I could just press my "pause" button and let things sink on my mind before "playing" it again.

How can things be so different... so complicated that i often found myself staring at a corner and everything seems to be... "blank"

I have lot of things to do... lot of things to accomplish... but I can't find any reason for it...

All I wanted now is a clear mind... a clear answer to questions drooling on my mind....

... the thing is.... i know where to find the answer... I am just afraid to know it...


.....sigh!

spotted this nice mini at folded & hung yesterday and immediately tried it on. i know i should have it! but... whoah... the one that i tried was the smaller size, and of course it doesn't fit! hehehe! I was just hoping I could have something that has the S tag on it. *wink* Then I tried the Larger size.. and nyee!!! it's so big for me.. then I asked the sales attendant for the medium size... and she checked their stock... while waiting I saw that their tops was on 50% discount and the one that i liked most was on sale! if that skirt is available, i told myself, i should get that top too... then here comes the sales girl saying there's no more stock! Whoa!!!! whaatttt???? I wanted the skirt and I can't get it! So sad!!! I will come back this weekend to check wheter a new stock has arrived...

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why is it that everytime that i would pay my bills, i always get irritated with first, the long lines and second, the tellers. really, they screwed my day up.. seeing them giggling, making this "chismisan" while encoding stuffs to their computers and while the lines are getting long. And then seeing them do their work is like picturing a slow motion picture which you wanted to scream and say "can you make it a bit faster, please???" Hah! well, it took me an hour before I could settle everything...

worst... my electricuty bill just came in this morning... which means i have to get back there and fall in line again... if only it arrived yesterday.. e di isahan na lang sana... oh well...

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it was unusual that i go to bed early.. usually i sleep at around 2am or beyond that but not as early as 12am... but last night seems sooo different. I was feeling soo tired and all (was the stress of paying my bills a factor?) I wanted to rest.... I headed to my bed 8:30 in the evening and just when I realized, I fell asleep and woke up 12 midnight feeling some cringe on my stomach... I am hungry!!! I want something to eat.... I grabbed charlotte who also happened to be on the lookout for food, and in the midlle of midnight, we are walking across the block from our apartment... tadah! we are having our midnight snack at jollibee (thank God, there's a 24-hour fastfood nearby)....

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he's not going home again... "enjoy the night", he said in a message he sent... but how? maybe i was just used of being with him most of the time.... am i missing him???

Ugh!

Still this is what I am feeling right now...

right after a sad news I got yesterday... after an abrupt decision which leaves me with no choice...after he broke a statement casually... leaving me standing still... wondering what happened...

I never want him to leave... everything was so ok.. so fine... until that weekend that brought some tense on my nerves...when I suddenly felt there's something wrong...

I know it has nothing to do with me, or with him... there's nothing wrong with US, actually. Outside factors (which happened to be a "hands-up" for me) that pressures him to leave.

I know and I can feel theres more to his shallow reason. What he told me and the others is not merely the whole point of him leaving. He's just making things light when in fact I know there's something to talk about.. especially us.

I hate myself of not having the guts to ask the real problem... of just letting things happened this way.. but it is not too late though... I can still work things out.. or maybe I shoud say, WE WORK THINGS OUT... but what if we can't?

I am not stupid enough not to notice the change of mood that we are having. Or maybe I am just dealing with this so much that I am becoming so affected.

but then... i know myself... more than anybody else does...

i know... I can go over this....

It's the first day of the Yuletide month... I can already feel Christmas wherever I go.. from the extravagant christmas decorations at malls, on the streets, offices, every establishments, I can hear christmas carols all around the corner, people rushing off the stores for their christmas shopping, the mark-down sales on every malls, children's faces looking forward for that gift-giving moment... and oh... my old christmas list, which I had last year, having the list of my 17 inaanaks then, which now turned to 20, my families and friends whom now, Im having the terrible time thinking of what presents to give them.

So, I know you guys also have your own christmas list, right???? I dont want you to have a difficult time wondering what to give me or so.. hehehehe! so I am making my own "christmas wishlist" which you guys might want to consider on your shopping... *wink*

No! no! no! this is not to pressure you ao anything... just a simple wish list so you wouldn't mind asking what I want....

so the list goes...

> I am into the urge of collecting boxers now.... you might want to try herbench... i saw a lot there... :-)

> Home Accesories... anything to add kakikayan to my dear crib...

> True Star by Tommy Hilfiger or pwede na ring Be Clean by Bennetton

> Flipflops! Kahit hindi Havaianas, owkei lang!

> Get Happy Earrings! Oh! I love them.. soo much!

I still have lot of things on my mind now... but still have to organize my thoughts. But anyhow... at least I already gave you an idea... right???? hehehehe!!!!

Advance Happy Christmas Everyone!!!